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Trying...

2009-06-21T13:14:00.002+08:00

Its about being nice,
by not trying to be nice.

Its about trying to make you smile,
by trying not to make you smile.

Its about making you happy,
by not trying to make you happy.

Its about wanting you to see things,
by not making you see it.

Its about wanting to know you,
by not wanting to know you.

Its about wanting to let you realize,
by not letting you realize it.

Its about trying to be closer,
by being further.

Its about trying to get to you,
by trying not to get to you.

Its about trying to tell you that its YOU,
by telling you that its not YOU.

-Syaz Sukarman

An un-responded message...

2009-06-20T02:34:00.003+08:00

19-Jun-2009
13:18

A question that has been brought up numerous times. But still have yet to have a real answer to it. Maybe we somehow know the answer, but just not realise it. Maybe its our stubborn nature, or perhaps ego, or could be even fear.

But i know somehow we know the answer but we just ain't being true to ourselves. But at the end of the day, i might be right and i might be wrong. Patience is all i have with me. Maybe all these while, it happened to bring out our differences. But sometimes, i feel its a healthy one.

Patience. I hope one day, you'll really understand...

-SyaZ Sukarman

Reasons behind answers...

2009-06-05T01:47:00.004+08:00

Why do we wake up every morning?

Why do we take the bus or the train in the morning?

Why do we go to school?

Why do we go to work?

Why do we go to the zoo when we were young?

Why do we like to go to the playground when we were kids?

Why do we buy gifts for birthdays?

Why do we still do the wrong things, when sometimes we know it is wrong?

Each of these questions has their answers to it.
But do you notice what happens when you ask "Why" to the answers of these questions.
Notice how asking "why", gives you an answer.
But asking another "Why", gives you the reasons.

For example...

Why do we go to work?

Answer is as simple as... to earn a salary.

But "Why" do we need to earn a salary?

So the reason for that would be...
To support the family, to ensure we ge to eat everyday etc.

Another example...

Why do we like to go to the playground when we were kids?

Because its a place where as children, we can play and have fun.

But "Why?"...

I'm sure we do get sick and tired of playing at the same playground every weekend. But most would say, the main reason for going there, was to meet up with friends and make new ones.

So maybe you could ask yourself, "Why?"... and "Why?".

Because sometimes the answer is clear to us, but do we know the reasons to it?

"Everything that i've planned has its reasons. You might not know it yet, You might know it later, or You might not know it at all. But all of it, has its reasons. If you trust, and you'll put your mind right, Then you'll eventually find out the reason to your own answers."

Something in that empty box... part 1

2009-06-04T10:05:00.004+08:00

There are times when believing is not just about seeing.
There are times when what it is may not be what i seems.

Who are you really?
What drives you really crazy?
What do you really like?
What makes you strong and weak?
What is it that you really fear?
What is it that can make you laugh or smile for no reason?

A million questions.
No answers.

Just like a nice plain empty box.

An attraction of some sort.
But a distraction when amidst others.

Pastel of colors.
Bright yet pale.

People say, "Its just an empty box."

I said, "Its not."

So they asked, "Why?"

And i replied, "Because i've not seen or known what was in there before. And i don't now what could fit in it now, or what it could be used to keep tomorrow. But i know if i keep the box, someday i'll find some answers."

And another question was raised, "What if the search for answers aren't worth the actual answers?"

With the deepest of breaths, "Its a risk in life that one takes."

...to be continued...

Reality...

2009-06-03T02:45:00.004+08:00

What is "reality" to you?

Yes, 'Life' is reality. The everyday challenges we face, the hardships, the joy and the sorrows, the pain and suffering. These are real, therefore being the 'reality' about life.

Many decide to run away from reality in different ways. Some decide to live in a 'fantasy' world. Every emotions, feelings, characteristics, based on fantasy. But to what extent can living in a fantasy world take you away from reality?

Why do people wanna run away from reality?

Is it because they are afraid of it?

Or maybe because they totally can't be bothered by it?

I just think that we can never run away from reality. No matter how far we run from it, it will still haunt us at the end of each day.

Reality check...

-Syaz Sukarman

A moment...

2009-05-28T13:09:00.005+08:00

The feeling...

pure relief...
of what a thousand words...
acting like a nation's army, preparing to defend its soil...
becomes blank for a moment.

A moment...
an unspecified short time, the present...
precious yet could kill...
meaningless yet nostalgic.

A moment...
to take it...
or lose it...

A right moment?
A wrong moment?
The best moment?
Define that please...

Moments are not to be wasted...
not to be taken advantage of...
Just to do the right thing...

-Syaz Sukarman

Be a child again...

2009-05-25T02:39:00.003+08:00

All i want is to see you one day, smiling a smile of pure happiness and joy.
Laughing because you want to, not because you have to.
Your heart and soul, free from the pain you're in right now.

Your mind hazed by your thoughts and feelings.
Just one day...
One fine day...
Be carefree.
Pamper yourself...
Fly a kite...
Ride a bicycle...
Just do simple things...
Uncomplicate yourself...

BE A CHILD AGAIN FOR ONE DAY!

A child who is free to dream,
...free to imagine.

A child who is free to be who he/she wants to be.

Carefree. No worries.

Just pure joy.

I hope one day, you'll find the time...
to just go out there...

and be a CHILD again.

-SyaZ Sukarman

Honestly...

2009-03-24T01:58:00.003+08:00

Sometimes things just happens unexpectedly. You might not know what might happen next, what you would feel in the next 5 mins, or who would be coming into your life tomorrow.

Its not usual but somehow i've felt this feeling of just wanting to be honest. No more hiding under my own feelings. No more hiding the truth. No more cover-ups. Coz the more i try to hide, i try to cover things up, or try to be in denial, the more i end up just crushing my own self. The question is, can honesty really be the best policy? Can being honest really do me good?

Honestly, i admit, its not that i am a liar. Certainly not. Its just that, there are times where i just feel like i have to hide the truth. Thoughts of perhaps, its not time for the truth to be heard. Starting off with secrets, will just bring you into more secrets.

I don't know why, i don't know how, but something happened recently, and it somehow made me open up to just be honest and let things out. Maybe not 100%, but at least somehow 80% is a good enough level. I've never felt myself being so honest and open in such a situation.

Right now, i really don't know what to say, i really do not know what i'm feeling, but all i know is, i'm filled with smiles.

P/S: Words in written, or spoken in a voice, of a rare desert rose, i wait in the silence of smiles.

Moving through time...

2009-03-10T01:48:00.004+08:00

I'll be back soon. Stay Tuned.

Whats hidden inside?

2009-01-11T23:05:00.004+08:00

When i first saw you, i knew i just had to get to know you. It was that big smile, that happy voice and that friendly eyes. The day i took the courage to just call you and talk to you for the very first time. But it was that moment, by the calm waters, where we shared our miserable life stories, that i felt that there is more to you than just what people say. From that day, i just keep looking forward to trying to find a day where i can call you and talk to you. Or just ask you out with no occasion. As i got to know you, i learned some things about you. The way you do things, your moods, your character, and i know for sure it ain't the normal "typical" girl character. You're unpredictable. Maybe because i'm still trying to get to know you. But thats what makes me want to get to know you more. To be even more honest, that is what is making me fall for you even more. Because of who you are. Because i know for sure, that i am falling for this person because eventhough it ain't going to be easy. I feel like there are so many junctions along the way, that sometimes i just don't know which turn to make at which junction. Coz i know if i were to make a wrong turn, the U-turn will be miles up ahead and to get back to the point before i made the wrong turn would not be easy. Its all these about you that i find so beautiful. I know it will be a great challenge for me. Thinking of all the challenges, it did made me wanna forget about this whole thing and let it be some normal guy's dream, but somehow my heart didn't want to. My heart just wanted to climb this rocky mountain, step by step. Whether i will be able to reach to the peak, it will depend on how well i climb, not how fast. Even if i don't make it to the peak, at least i know for sure, that i have fought my way up.
I know in between i've made some silly mistakes. My emotions were weak and so was my mind. I just wish you knew that i've realised those things now and all these while, you were the one still on my mind. Right now, time ain't really doing me good, but i hope that a day will come when i can tell you all these personally. Letting you know how sincere i am. But at the end of the day, its you who decides whats to be. Right now, i just wish you would open up to me more and let me find that way to your heart. I want to be there for you, not only when you're happy, but also when you are at your lowest. I want to make sure that the big smile you have will appear more often. Now, i tremble when i'm going to meet you or talk to you. Maybe the feeling is just increasing. I pray that you would really open up your heart, let me find that path that can bring me to you. Like the lyrics of a song that i wrote for you... "Trust in me, Believe in me, and let me walk you way, Cause i will live another day to see that smile again"...

-Syaz Sukarman

RP OPEN HOUSE CONCERT 2009

2009-01-11T22:31:00.002+08:00

Wednesday, 7th January 2009.

REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC OPEN HOUSE CONCERT 2009

BEATS ENCORE & CAPOEIRA

Beats Encore.

Beats Encore with Capoeira.

Capoeira.

Beats Encore.

THERE WILL BE A RE-RUN OF THE CONCERT ON

THURSDAY, 15TH JANUARY 2009

TRCC, STUDIO.

6PM.

THIS TIME IT IS OPEN TO FELLOW STUDENTS.

SO DO CATCH OUR PERFORMANCE PLUS OTHER GREAT AND EXICITING PERFORMANCES.

The last few moments of 2008... The great start for 2009.

2009-01-04T20:58:00.007+08:00

4th January 2009

What happened?

OFFICIAL!

"What a feeling..."

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3rd January 2009

What happened?

BUSKING WITH RHYTHM DE'PASION (RDP) @ TAKASHIMAYA, ORCHARD ROAD.

"That was the 1st best news in 2009. Thank you all once again."

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31st December 2008 / 1st January 2009

What happened?

It was a day that i was looking forward to. The night before, was a night spent trying to learn 7 songs to perform at East Coast 2009 Countdown busking with Rhythm De'Pasion. The feeling was awesome. The first 3 sets i was still quite lost because i'm still not used to the songs. One night to memorise 7 songs, its not easy. But i guess i manages to cope.

The crowd went super wild and crazy when we ushered in 2009. Too crazy that we had to cut our set short for safety reasons.

"Somehow, the 2 biggest wishes i had came true at the last few moments of 2009. Thank you brothers and sisters."

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28th December 2008.

What happened?

Had a performance at a wedding ceremony. It was a friend's relative if i'm not mistaken. Performance was NOT alright but i won't want to say why.

After performance, in the evening, went out with Bud, Ema and Wan Chai. We had dinner at Tong Seng (Bugis). The night was continued with a chill out session at Haji Lane. Where we had sheesha and some light gourmet to go along. Ema's sister joined us awhile later.

A long entry.

2008-12-22T00:45:00.020+08:00

Its been quite awhile since i last updated an entry. I've been having people telling me that my blog is rusting. Sorry people. I can't really say i've been very busy lately, but i would say, i'm just in a holiday mood right now.

I was suppose to meet my friend today. I know she has been wanting to meet up with me. But i was caught up. Initially we were supposed to meet yesterday, but i decided to watch Wicked Aura busk @ Orchard Rd. Its been a long time since they last did a busking. Then at night, i went to Esplanade to watch Bloco Singapura + NovoBloco, Live.

She called me this morning but i was still asleep when i answered her call. But really, i was not in the mood to go out, far from where i am staying. My body is so tired, i just feel like resting. Which i eventually did. I woke up late.

In the afternoon, my sis called. She and her fiance wants to treat me to a movie @ Causeway Point. Well, since it ain't far, and its a movie treat, and its with my sister and her fiance, I can't say no. Hehe. We watched "The Day The Earth Stood Still". My god, its a BORING movie. If you want to know how boring it is, watch it yourself.

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Saturday, 20th Dec 2008.

I went to watch Wicked Aura Batucada busking @ Orchard Rd from 3pm to about 5pm. When i reached Orchard, they were already busking. I met the rest of my school mates there as well.

As usual, they played their usual numbers eg. "Funky Cherry Bombs", "Samba Singapura", "Fight", "Funk", "Afroxe" + 2 new songs.

(above) Matt & Me.

(above) Me & Budi.

(above) Me & Eddy Wicked.

(above, from left) Uan Abang, Me & Wan Afro.

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Tuesday, 16th December 2008.

A last minute meet up cum cathering thingy with the guys. Coz tomorrow, our bro, Hussain, will be leaving for Spain. We met up at Tampines Mall, had a quick bite at Burger King. It was suppose to be something light, but in the end, we just grabbed ourselves a meal.

We head on down to Prata Paradise after that, and that was where the rest of us met up. Chilled at the void decks till about 2am. Check out the photos. Mostly from Zal's camera.

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Saturday, 13th Dec 2008.

Its ZoukOut. This is my first ZoukOut that i am going to. The thing is, i am going alone. Some people would find it crazy or weird, but i find it cool. Besides, i'm meeting the rest there later on. They will be performing at the best Music and Dance festival in Singapore.

When i arrived, the crowd still wasn't that happening. Ok, nevermind, i'm not going to say much. I'll let the pictures do the talking.

Below are some of the ZoukOut promo pics, some from my camera and some are from the official ZoukOut website. Enjoy.

a "SUGAR-RIDOO" day.

2008-12-07T22:33:00.006+08:00

29th November 2008, Saturday

What can an accidental small pack of Sugar do to your day?

TOTAL AWESOME CRAZINESS, FUN AND LAUGHS.

and be amazed...

It can even turn a wrapping paper into a

DIDGERIDOO.

AMAZING?

I won't say much, but i'll let the pictures do the talking.

"Somehow, i was so looking forward for this day. Your message when i was still in the dressing room the day before while waiting and getting ready for the CLOSING BASH performance, saying that the outing was on, it was the best thing during the CLOSING BASH. What a day to mark the end of a busy month. I had lots of fun laughs. I hope you had too. As usual, a day out with you means having good food, ICE-CREAM, which we had 2 infact (McDonald's Cornetto McFlurry & Ben & Jerry's). And coincidentally, not to forget, the FIREWORKS to end the night. Its totally AWESOME. Don't forget we got a few "ONE DAY" to cover in our list. Definately am looking forward to it."

Check out the photos...

2008-12-07T18:27:00.005+08:00

Check out more of the

REFLECTIONS 2008

YOU'VE GOT BEATS II

BEATS ENCORE

photos by our very own PHILLIP TAN.

Click here to go to my multiply to check these photos out.

Happiness with sacrifice / 1st time in BLOCO SINGAPURA

2008-11-25T01:04:00.004+08:00

To a special bunch of you.

I know that most of you all now wouldn't want to speak to me. I understand. You people might be thinking that i am ignoring you all. You people might be thinking i don't care anymore. I'm sorry. It may seem that way, but trust me, its not. In fact, everyday i miss you all. I really do.

I have my reasons. I don't need all of you to know. I don't need all of you to understand. Its something which i have to face on my own. I'm sorry. I really miss working with you people, i miss the outings we would have, the meet ups @ the "spot", and everything else we would do together. But if you people have already put me out of this circle of friendship, i don't blame you all. I understand. I'm just saying that i really miss you people.

As for that "plan" that your fellow friends have, i personally say, don't take too long to decide. Just give it a try. Don't be afraid. If you all think along the way, it is abit hard for you all, then you can always inform your fellow friends. This people are trying hard to bring your friendship to the next level. I really urge you people, give it a shot. Help them. They need you, Every single one of you. But if you are really not interested then that is a totally different story.

To my dear friend.

I really miss you alot. I miss the morning bus rides to school, the 1st break sandwich meet up, the 2nd break go makan or go to spot, the conga and djembe talk, the walk home, the hand-shake and the hug, and most importantly, YOU. I miss it all. I'm sorry. I remembered you saying, "do what you have to do, as long as we can get the old Syazni back". This is what i am doing.

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A Happy NIGHT!

Its my first time in BLOCO SINGAPURA. Ok, now who says playing surdo is boring. I think its nice to play the surdo. Especially when you're playing either the "cutting" or "Macasau"(i don't think the spelling is correct)". And remember, the most important thing in playing Samba is... "THE SWING". It so important. Without it, your playing will just sound so military. It was cool learning under Syed Ahmad, Omar, Sham, Jo and the rest. It was an experience. I would definately come for their practices. Actually, am looking forward for it.

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To YOU.

I know your head is spinning because of the situation you're in right now. I know the feeling sucks. I know reality does bite you, and it will definately hurt. I'm sure you know it too. Like i said, and you've also promised already, don't ever say you've lost hope. I want you to be happy. I'm here for you at this bad moments, and i do want the happy you also. Just for your info, although we don't really do talk much, but i do care for you. Be happy ok? If you need to, settle those unsettled stuff before it gets even worse. If you do need someone to talk to, just know that i am here for you, anytime.

Don't forget to check your schedule. We'll catch Body of Lies and lets have some nice sweet munchies and just have a happy time this weekend ok?

- Syazni "Syaz-Bo" Sukarman -

2 nights of Percussive action.

2008-11-20T22:25:00.003+08:00

17th November 2008

Rhythm De'Pasion

The Esplanade, Concourse.

18th November 2008

M.A.D (Mad About Drums)

The Esplanade, Concourse.

2 great evenings of Percussive madness. First, we had RDP performing their Bateria-style music. The next night, at the exact same location and time, we have M.A.D performing their Brazilian-style music.

I went to watch M.A.D with some of the Beats Encore members. Husain, Sham, Amy, Yanie, Syaza, Wann, Maya, Fai, Ima, Izzah, Dura, Zuzu, Ima, Bud, Sammie and i really can't recall who else. I'm sorry if i never state your name. Anyways...

M.A.D was superbly awesome. They had Omar, Falah, Rizal and a few others from La'selle plus Rahman. They played songs from Olodum and other brazilian numbers. My favourite for the night was when they played "No Woman No Cry", a cover originally performed by Olodum & Jimmy Cliff, and Rahman was singing.

After the show we chilled at Marina Square's McDonalds. There a few other percussionists were also there. And i got to meet one of my idol in hand percussion. Even though he may be the same age as me, but i really like to see the way he performs. He is none other than Uan Abang from Wicked Aura Batucada, or another name for him would be Mr. Afroxe.

We had chit-chat session with him, and even though it was just a normal chit-chat, but somehow i find it quite a learning experience. I really wish i would be able to learn from him some stuff.

(above) Me & Uan Abang during M.A.D's performance.
(below)Me & Syed Ahmad during RDP's performance.

HOT LATIN NIGHTS presents RHYTHM DE'PASION

2008-11-19T03:25:00.014+08:00

Hot Latin Nights
presents
RHYTHM DE'PASION
live @ The Concourse, Esplanade
17th November 2008
7.15pm & 8.15pm

Consisting of 10 passion-driven young percussionists, Rhythm De'Pasion, also better known as RDP, performed @ The Esplanade for the first time. It was an amazing 2-sets of body moving grooves. Hearing and watching them performed that night just sets the place on fire with their Rhythms.

I've had the opportunity to get to know these faboulous and wonderful people, whom i would gladly say, are my friends. I also did manage to catch up with the group before their performance. To them, this opportunity to be playing at The Esplanade was "a dream come true". I could see some nerve-tension moments before the show. I was told by a member of the group, the feeling was different then performing in other venues. This time around, it is a performance that features them as the main highlight. To me, they deserved this night. This night, was definately their night.

To RDP:
These are your very friends who came down to support you people on your big night.
This one's for you!

(above)The Beats Encore family.

(aboove,from left)Syaza,Yani,Nadia,Aqilah.

(aboove)Fai looking dashing.

(above)Some of the Beats Encore.

(above)Me & Aqilah. I only took 2 shots with me in it that night.

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Its showtime.
HOT LATIN NIGHTS
presents to you
RHYTHM DE'PASION

Pictures from the 1st set.

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Pictures from the 2nd set.

(above)Featuring their friend and mentor, Syed Ahmad. Playing "Bahiana Funk".

(above)A special something from the group.

(above)"Can you feel it?..."

(above)Beats Encore on their feets.

(above)Together for the fans & crowd.

(above)Take a bow.

(above)Faizal gets a blue rose. Guess who it's from?

(above)Birthday boy Faiz with RDP.

(above)Faizal & Liyana. Now you know who gave those flowers.

(above)Dreadlock couple Haiyul with her Siblings.

(above)The fans of RDP.

Photography by Syazni "Syaz-Bo" Sukarman.

A Special Dedication (Belated)... 16.11.2008

2008-11-17T23:49:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY FAIZ!

What can i say about this guy. One thing for sure is, i can imitate his laughter. Sometimes i think i even laugh like him. Ter-ikot2. He is just fabulous to have around, whether as a friend to talk to, to chill with, or as a fellow percussionist. Playful and stubborn sometimes, or can i say most of the time. But then again, when i was his age back then, i can't say i was much different. A nice brotha, who is always cheerful, happy, caring, friendly and nice to talk to (but sometimes abit "cekik darah", haha.)

There is one thing about this brotha you can't ignore. His positive attitude towards situations. When things are down, he is always there with a positive attitude to keep things going. His courage to try and learn new things, which i have seen during practices. I personally am definately proud to have been able to perform alongside with him in a few occasions in school. Keep learning brotha, and you'll make it to be a good percussionist one day.

Happy 17th Birthday to you. May Allah bless you with all the good things this world can give. Semoga Allah memberkatimu dan panjangkan umurmu. Amin.

Tribal Love,
Syazni "Shaz-Bo" Sukarman.

p/s: Sorry, i didn't get you anything for your b'dae. As for your "that" plan for the future of "IJ", i hope it works out. I admire the spirit that you and the others have to pursue such a plan. It will be a great challenge for you and the rest, but i know you can face it. If you need any help, i'm always here to help as much as i can.... and 1 more thing, please learn how to swallow a tablet. I can't always be there to crush it for you. Wahahahaz. Just kidding. Take care.

3 Nights of REFLECTIONS

2008-11-17T13:38:00.011+08:00

Beats Encore has already done its part for REFLECTIONS 2008. Now its time for us to support the other IGs and performances. Well, from Thursday, 13th Nov until Saturday, 15th Nov, I personally enjoyed 3 fun nights of performances.

13th November, Thursday

REPLUG: An Acoustic Night

I really enjoyed this performance by the RePlug IG.

Who would have thought they turned the studio into a "lounge-like" environment. Their vocals we darn good. They had good musicians too. I really had a great night of music that is soothing to the ears. They brought to the audience songs like "Hotel California (Eagles)", "In The End (Linkin Park)", "Take a Bow (Rihanna)", and many more.

All in all, i would like to say... GO REPLUG!

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14th November, Friday.

Hossan, LIVE!

Ok, I admit i am not really a fan of Hossan Leong, but who would want to miss his Stand-up comedy show. A night filled with laughters that could make your stomache burst. A broadway, jazz style show. Plus his touch of stand-up jokes.

Hossan! You rock my belly! (Woah, that sounds so wrong!)

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15th November, Saturday.

Artistic Tapestry

First of all, before i say anything about the show, i would like everyone to know, that it is also my MAMA's BIRTHDAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA! ABANG LOVE YOU SO VERY VERY MUCH!

Artistic Tapestry featured alot of different performances.

The Dragon Dance performance was awesome. There was also the indian dance, the wushu gang, chinese orchestra and more.

There was also two celebrities. One from Vasantham, Mohd Shabir. The other from MediaCorp and Suria, Hyrul Anuar.

But the best performances for the night definately goes out to the Malay Cultural group and also to the drummers from ZinGo Drums. They were awesome and fantastic. I cannot explain. If you've missed it, you've missed alot of quality shows.

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Pictures from the 3 days. Actually only the first 2 days.

We came super early for tickets.

WE GOT THE TICKETS!

Happy people!

Whoever took this picture, I LIKE!

This Above picture is take by Yanie Kerinting!

Me & Yani President.

Syaz & Bud.

3 Amigos. I'm sitting on a ......?

The nice voices of REPLUG.

The musicians of REPLUG.

This is FIT, my old shoolmate. Her voice is so darn nice.

This is Fifi, and he is AWESOMELY GOOD.

Oh, and he is the son of Hanafie Warren.

This picture is cool. Coz i took it.

A picture with an old friend.

My Favourite singer for the night!

SyaZ.

Yanie Kerinting.

Rozy Joyah.

NinSeh NoHands. Hossan, LIVE!

"You came with a different purpose. I was about to find the calmness. But somehow it just had to come again. I know how happy it is for you, and i just want to give you the biggest smile i can and say how happy i am for you too. But the truth is, i'm hurting inside. I'm hurting real bad. If i knew, i would have just made it a day for myself. Which would be so much nicer. Maybe the signs are showing. I know what i've promised, but perhaps that promise is just going to end up hurting me more. I can't hold it in me for too long. I'm sorry. But my promise is this. When i've let you go, i'll come back. I promise."

Secrets / Disclosure

2008-11-10T12:33:00.010+08:00

Its MONDAY. I'm the Geek in the Pink. Why? I guess you can guess it. I'm wearing a Pink t-shirt today. Finally, after such a long time of waiting and searching for one, finally i've managed to find it. Pink may not be one of my favourite colors, but it sure is a happy color. I'm down with anything that makes me look happy.

Today's module is Communications. Today's topic is about "To tell or not to tell". In other words, mainly about "Secrets" and "Disclosure". Is there any reason why this topic falls today out of all days. Or rather, there were a few times when i didn't attend this module. Why did it have to be today?

Today i am quite the "belo". If you wanna know what that means, it basically means i am "DUMB" today. I would not want to say the story because it would make me look like a darm fool. But its all thanks to the word "Anney" that can be found on someone's blog(not saying who, wahahahahahz).

This Thursday's performance is postponed to early December. Sad, because everyone is already hyped, especially after our concert has just ended. Its been 3 months of individual group practice. Its time to get back together as a team. But the postponing of the performance is just great. It means we have more time to practice first.

Had our practice @ E3. Sorry to Rhythm De'Pasion. Because of us, you guys had to move to another location for practice. Anyways, we'll be there to support you guys on the 17th @ Esplanade. To everyone who reads this, please do come down to Esplanade ok? Catch these guys in action. They are good i tell you. I promise you people will have the time of your life grooving to their beats. These guys have worked hard, and to play at such a venue, is like a dream come true to them. So i guess we should give our warmest support to such local home-grown talent.

Get ready for the revised version of Samba-Bhangra.

"At that moment, my heart fell to the ground and broke into a million tiny pieces. So shattered that i didn't even bother picking up the pieces. I just walked away. What i thought i had cleared from my mind two days ago, came to haunt me worse. I wished that i had crossed that dark road earlier, where there was more light. When i reached a higher ground, i looked down, only to see those shattered pieces of my heart being blown by the wind. But to see that big glow, at least that keeps me beating for the meantime. If only it was made known. But now its too late. Only time will find me a new heart."

Letting it all out.

2008-11-10T01:17:00.031+08:00

WARNING

This is quite a long entry so do be patient.

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Order of entries are arranged to best suit the flow of viewing.

Sunday, 9th November 2008

It was a funny but coolest happening day.

Last Sunday, my parents decided to go all the way to Arab Street just to have lunch. Today, my parents, together with my sis, decided to go all the way to VivoCity. My sis wanted to do abit of shopping. Had lunch there.

This is the funny but happening part. After VivoCity, we wanted to have a drink. Its not always the whole family gets to go out together. After all the places we thought of, guess where we went...

CHANGI AIRPORT TERMINAL 3 McCafe

Like i said... FUNNY but HAPPENING!

After we walked around T3 and had our drinks, my dad dropped me @ Tampines (Fai's place).

I chilled @ Tampines with Fai, Wan & Maya today. Cool shit eh.

We talked about Iban Jiwarr and about making things happen.

After that we chilled @ a void deck nearby, and as usual, drumsticks knocking and we came up with some plans for tomorrow's practice. A new modified version of B.E SamGaeBhra (Samba, Samba Reggae & Bhangra, with a slice of Hip-Hop).

Went off about 10.40pm

Saturday, 8th November 2008

Its meant to be a day for me to be alone, or as said by a friend of mine...

"EMO-ing"

(but i ain't emo aight!)

I promised my friend that i would go to the beach alone. Indeed i went. Sembawang beach. I brought a tikar(mat) and a bottle of water. I initially intended to head on to East Coast Park, but i remembered when my dad brought me to the Mosque just beside the beach @ Sembawang Beach. Masjid Tempatan Sembawang.

The feeling was so peaceful. So calm. The breeze and the smell of it, the peace and quiet, the tranquility, the feeling of relaxness, the sound of the waves, the tides, it just brought me to a place where i could bring out all my thoughts and browse through it one by one. Let me re-trace the very thing that has made me lose that very thing called "pure happiness" in me.

I know i can't get it back within a day, but i know it will come back.

I will get back the Syazni that first entered RP and the Syazni that first entered Beats Encore. The Syazni that laughs because he really is happy. The Syazni that is calm and steady when situations arise. The confident and trouble-free Syazni. Where is he? I'll find myself again. I know i will. I just hope when i do, you people are still there by my side.

A big THANK YOU to my dear friend for your suggestion. The feeling is unbelievable. So the next time you are going to have to follow me as promised aight! Hehe.

I got home before sundown. I washed up and then i headed down to town about 9pm. I just wanted to walk around town. It was 10pm and my god, town was still so packed like as though it was only 7pm. Seriously. I wonder if there was anything interesting. I told Fad that i'd wait for her to finish work and we'll head home together. She finished work around 11.20pm.

To you:

I pray that one day, you'd find the right one so that you can forget about your past.

Just so you know, i have a song for the day.

(Thanks to the Karaoke D.J opposite my block who blasted the speakers. There was a wedding function going on.)

Ungu - Kekasih Gelapku

"Ku mencintaimu,

lebih dari apa pun.

Meski pun tiadi satu orang pun yang tahu.

Ku mencintaimu,

Sedalam-dalam hatiku.

Meski pun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku."

This is the MTV for the song.

Tuesday, 4th November 2008

You've Got Beats II

BEATS ENCORE

I said more pictures will come. So here are some.

If you want to see more pictures,

If you want to see pictures of

KenjiDot, HiakDush!, Dunges Les'Filles, or The Seniors

You can go to any of their blogs to see their pictures.

Sorry, but i got alot of pictures to put and i don't really have any nice photos of them. If i have, i will put it up.

So below is some pictures of Iban Jiwarr, and the finale.

Watch our performance.

Iban Jiwarr, before the Show.
(Finally a full-team photo)

The Tribe's Warlord and The Princess.

Iban Jiwarr in action.

Samba Reggae

Lets get funky for the finale!

I just realised i didn't take any pictures with anyone after the concert.
This is the only picture i have taken with Aqilah.
Thanks Miss Universe.

Iban Jiwarr's Princess. Unmasked.

Wednesday, 5th November 2008

Post REFLECTIONS mood

I was suppose to be in school but ended up somewhere else. Below are pictures of the day.

p/s: I don't know why but i just felt like taking alot of pictures.

I like this picture.
Photography by Milly.

@ The Esplanade.

Marina Square.
Cool graffiti.

Hey Rozy! Read the SIGN!

YUSSAY! Its a nice picture of her.
Photography by Syaz.

My bro... Milly.

Syaz... in BLUE.

Its me, with the rest(individually).

McDonalds in the afternoon.

________________________________

Below are all the pictures from the PAST that i have yet to post.
Just scroll down slowly.

1st Full-Dress Rehearsal @ Studio

Sheesha + Tribal Meeting

Outing With Fad

BUBBLES

RANDOM

Shopping with YUSSAY!

PERFORMACE @ SOUTH AGORA
6th October 2008

To my Special Friend.

2008-11-06T22:05:00.007+08:00

Hey Yussy!

Remember this picture above?

I'm sure you do.

And i'm not talking about my short hair.

Its the first time i ever got to know you. Well, i won't say get to know you, because all we talked about was conga playing techniques. Actually, i was also suppose to be with you, and Sanjay was suppose to be the one teaching. But ended up we both teached you.

I still remember how i was quite afraid of trying to teach you because you seem so quiet and all. But then, now that i know you so way much better... "The Truth Hurts" TM.

JUST JOKING!

Its Amazing seeing you on stage, Princess Yussy, playing the conga.

The way you played, you really put a smile on my face. You were awesome.

Thats why i remembered about the day i first got to know you. How much you've transformed, from someone who knows nothing about conga, can now start to do wonders on it.

The part where you solo-ed, it was eye and ear catching for me. You did it o'friend! You were great!

Keep improving. Keep practising. Keep learning. Be open to other people's skills and techniques. Learn from your mistakes. Learn from other's mistakes. Be positive. Be passionate. Be loving and caring. Be humble and strong. Be yourself.

And you'll make it someday.

When its not related to music, you are always there. I remember the time we first walked down Strength Avenue. The things you told me. Your words of encouragement. You really are a Princess.

After what you told me today while walking home. I guess those words you said just now has its truths. I am not the same Happy me. The me that you knew months back. The me that always seem to happy when he plays or talks about music. The me that don't even need music to be happy. The me with the "short hair". Perhaps i've lost that. Perhaps i've lost myself.

You are right. I need to find myself back. I should take my time, but like you said, i can't take too long or it'll get worse instead of better.

Many times i tried to hide it. Somehow when you mentioned all this, i was also quite shocked that you realised and noticed all this. Someone becoming more observant seh. Which is good. So i'll take your comments positively. I hope it can help me find myself again, and it can help build a better me in the future.

I'll take your advice dear friend (except about the cut my hair part, i'll have to really consider). Perhaps this weekend i'll make a trip down to the beach. Oh, yah, i must go alone right? I think i will. You are right. Everyone needs a break. I definately do need one.

Don't forget our promise just now OK?

I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH DEAR FRIEND.

REFLECTIONS '08

2008-11-04T23:00:00.001+08:00

YOU'VE GOT BEATS 2!

BEATS ENCORE

To BEATS ENCORE

Be it you are KenjiDot, HiakDush!, Dunges Les'Filles, Iban Jiwarr or Seniors.

You have all done a wonderful and excellent job.

I am so proud of all of you. Thank you so much for making this concert a success for everyone.

I'm sure all of you are very tired and shag-ed after 3 months of hard work and effort.

Now that the concert is over, rest well my fellow B.E mates.

We'll resume practices again shortly i hope, and after this, its time to really start working hard to get to the next level.

To IBAN JIWARR

this one goes out to the 10 of you

ROZIYAH BTE ISMAIL (Rozy)

NATHIRAH BTE SHAHUL HAMEED (Nat)

RIDHWAN B ALWI (Wan)

FAIZ B ABDULLA ALTWAY (Faiz)

NURSURYANI BTE RAHIM (Yanie Kerinting)

MOHAMED FAIRUZ B HAMID (Fai)

AZMIL B ZAINAL (Milly)

SITI NOR ZULIANI (Ninseh)

MUHAMMAD RUSHDAN B ABDUL RAZAK (Dan)

YUSLIANA BTE MISRAN (Yussy)

I am really very proud of all of you people.

Months of hard practices. We went through the tiredness, the sweat, the pain, the tears, the challenge of practising during Ramadhan, the last minute changes, the pressure.

Somehow, whatever came along the way, we still stayed the same and we stood firm on that stage and went on to put up a good performance.

My good wishes to all of you.

I'm really sorry i didn't sit down and talk to you people after the concert. If you have to know, just minutes before the concert, i felt the worse feeling a performer could feel before performing. I held it and covered it with that make-up and costume. I even felt like just packing up and getting out of the studio just after the whole concert. If it weren't for a few souls that time, i would have. That is why i could not really say much when i was asked to give a speech. But you guys rock-ed my world this few months. Including the SHOWTIME!

TRIBAL LOVE.

To my SPECIAL FRIEND

I'm so sorry. I don't mean to be sensitive but at that perticular moment, i just didn't expect such words to have came from you. I know you were joking, but perhaps at that time, it just hit me so hard that at that particular time i just felt like shutting myself away from all of you. For that moment, i held it back in me. It even carried on futher and i eventually did shut myself away from all of you. After the whole concert was over, i really just wanted to go into the dressing room, pack my stuff and just leave the studio, leave TRCC and just go home. A place where i know i'll always belong there. But i'm sorry. I truly am. I know deep down you were just joking. I apologise. Maaf kan aku k?... SAYANG KAU BANYAK BANYAK!

On a more happy note, you really looked like a princess on stage. You looked great, you played well. Well done dear friend. Well Done!

Rhythm in the streets... with De'Pasion

2008-10-28T02:43:00.010+08:00

Basically how my day started. It didn't really started a good day. Some personal troubles but i'd have to handle it myself.

My initial plan for today didn't take place too. So since i had no plans, i decided to go and catch Rhythm De'Pasion busk @ town. I met up with Faizal & Wan first before going to Haiyul's place. I sat through their practice session. The RDP bus came @ 4.30pm. It was raining then.

When we reached town, the rain was still kinda pouring. Quite a few of Beats Encore people came down to support RDP. When our fellow friends perform, thats what we do. Support.

1st & 2nd set @ Wheelock Place.

3rd & 4th set @ Takashimaya, Ngee Ann City.

Below of some of the pictures taken by me. I volunteered to be their camera crew since i really had nothing to do on that day.

Happy laughters in the bus.

Wan's first time busking with RDP.

Instrumento Caseiro.

Faiz, looking cool.

Friends of RDP.

More friends.

Their tools.

Coming your way.

Monochrome effect.

Unity.

Lets Crump.

More pictures to come.

Seriously, these guys are full and packed with energy. Sometimes you just even wonder where they get their energy from. Busking for a few hours, with minimal amount of intervals.

Thanks to Husain and the guys, for letting me play a song with you all. It was fun, and it really helped me put away all the thoughts. Music drowns me away the best.

Thanks guys.

A Chocolateeeee Evening!

2008-10-27T00:38:00.005+08:00

Its SUNDAY and i don't have any plans. Actually i wanted to go out to buy something. In fact i wanted to get some casual present for a friend. I was wondering who to ask along. Suddenly i just decided to dial Fad's cell.

I asked her if she had any plans for the day. She said she didn't. And so, i asked her if she wanted to go out. Besides, its been a while since the last time we went out together. (Remember the Orange Julius Strawberry Cheesecake Blizzard? She was the one who introduced me to it. Oh, and not forgetting the Fried Mars Bar.)

Initially we planned to meet at 3.30pm but since she needed to do something first, we met at 5pm.

We headed down to Marina Square. We sort of went window shopping. Hahaz. Let me tell you, we saw this digital clock. It looked so cool, especially the one with the GREEN leds. Don't be surprise if next time, what i have in my house, she also have in hers. ESPECIALLY the big BEAN BAG! Oh, and also this old school "railway station clock". If you know what i mean. AWESOME i tell you.

Then i told Fad that i wanted to eat Ice-Cream. She also felt like having it so we go jalan-jalan first. This time @ Suntec City. Actually, we went there coz she wanted to check out Cotton On and Ben & Jerry's, but sadly, Ben & Jerry's ain't there anymore. So we decided to go to Andersen's Ice-Cream instead. Before that, we went to POP-CORN. I saw this cool THE DARK KNIGHT poster. Its a rare poster of the movie. I heard from the salesguy, its also quite rare in the States. But not time to buy. I helped her pick an Audrey Hepburn poster. Very pop-art style. Its a poster of "Breakfast at Tiffany's". Super dope ah.

Next... to ANDERSEN's.

We ordered a "couple-set CHOCOLATE FONDUE". Lerr... nak step couple lah pulak. Couplekk ader ah. But then, its SEDAPPPPP ah!!!! Its my first time eating Chocolate Fondue. One thing about going out with Fad is that she always got new nice food to let me try. But its super nice. You should see the way she ate the fondue. This one cannot tell, hahaz. But all i can say is, it was DISASTROUS. Muahahahaz. Chocolate dripping, strawberry stuck in chocolate and many more. But very funny ah. And i cannot take it when i wanted to dip the kiwi in the chocolate. This was what she said...

"EH... BESAR NYE!" (with a stoink face)

Ok, when more pictures come to me, i would update it and show you pictures of the fondue. Below is pictures of how both of us got "high" after eating abit too much chocolate.

After Ice-Cream, we sat for awhile at "BONSAI GARDEN". Chit-chat, before we made our way home.

Thanks Fad. I had a fun evening out with ya! Till next time... our Choc Buffet aite!

To Fad:
If you feel that its best for you to further your education and pursue your career overseas after you graduate from RP, i would fully encourage you to do so. In arts, i think its best if you can get your exposure outside of local waters. Don't worry about being out of your "comfort zone". I know you'll be able to adapt. Just make sure when you go, you go with the right mindset. I know you can do it. I can't help much but i can give as much moral support as i can. Good luck and all the best k? The only sad thing is that i get to know you only now, and in a few months time, you're going to graduate. But look on the bright side, its nice knowing a person like you, plus, you're a friend of my sister too, and Singapore is a small country. So even after you graduate, can just keep in touch. Stay cheerful and happy always. Hope to have more food galores next time! =)

-Syaz

More t-shirt ideas...

2008-10-26T15:00:00.002+08:00

Milly's

Yussay's

The Tribe's Coming.

2008-10-26T11:20:00.002+08:00

Catch this Tribal Performance

as a part of the

"Beats Encore: You've Got Beats II"

Concert.

Date: 04.11.2008

Venue: The Republic Culture Center Studio

Time: 7.30pm

Tickets are limited.

Iban Jiwarr will be busking @ Republic Polytechnic on 4th November, 12.20pm, Outside Booklink/7-11. Do catch us there. Busking to promote the "You've Got Beats II" concert which will take place on the night itself.

Iban Jiwarr T-Shirt Idea.

2008-10-24T00:53:00.006+08:00

To all Iban Jiwarr-eans

I'm sure you people would be interested in having a group t-shirt.

I've came up with an initial draft of the t-shirt.

Below is the front design.

Just a simple "iban jiwarr" text on the bottom right hand side of the t-shirt.

Below is the back design.

For the back, you can choose to have any text you want.
Try to keep it a between 2 to 3 words.

For eg, as shown below

"Urban Ibanism"

"jiwarrness now"

And your name will be below your text (as shown in the sample).

Clouded visions. Unsure.

2008-10-23T22:29:00.002+08:00

Have you ever felt the feeling of being so unsure about something that it just freezes you.

It puts you in a deep thought. A thought that can actually seperate you from reality.

A fog that smears the vision. Not being able to see clearly. Not knowing what is infront. Can't tell if you're heading in the right direction.

Try driving on the highway in a heavy downpour. Wipers becoming of no use, you wished that you could just stop and let the rain ease before you move off again.

But

What if you can't stop?

What if you just got to keep on moving?

What will you do?

Slow down because of the slippery roads? Keep a safe distance so that you have more time to react? Turn on your headlights so that people can see you?

Now lets say its a heavy, slow moving traffic. Would you keep to the fast lane? or would you just stick to the lane where its easier to make an exit turn even if its just slow moving? What if your exit is still way further up ahead?

Perhaps that is just how the world works. Perhaps that is just how life works.

Perhaps one thing somehow represents another.

Put my analogy into a life's perspective.

What do you think you would do?

If you can't to relate it to life, try breaking it down into different parts.

- The heavy downpour

-The useless wipers

and next...

- Slippery roads

- A safe distance

- Turning on the headlights

and also...

- The fast lane

- The slow lane

- the easy exit

Now you try to relate it to life.

I'm sure you'll be able to. If you can't, then don't try too hard.

It will come to you one day.

.Unsure.

Coming Back Soon...

2008-10-21T15:21:00.004+08:00

In life, its never always constant.

The only constant thing in life is...

"CHANGE"

Everyday is a new day.

You'll never know what will happen tomorrow,

or

5 minutes later.

So don't let the moments pass by you just.

Time is indeed precious.

While there is still time,

Do what you have to.

Many down moments. Moments so down that it totally breaks your heart. But, beyond the dark clouds, the sun still shines brightly. Let the wind blow the dark clouds away and the sun will shine again.

Thank you everyone (I.J). Its been a learning experience for me to have been able to work with all of you. Thank you for being there for me too in my dark cloud moments. The hug, the words, i won't forget it. Thank you Faiz, Fai, Wann, Milly, Dan, Nat, Nins, Rosy, Yanie, Yussie.

Lets have fun and let Reflections be a moment we can be proud of.

To my dear friend too. I really thank you so much. I know what you told me at that moment, it really didn't work to cheer me up. At that moment, i just needed to let everything out. But you sat there by my side. Listening patiently. Your presence and your words and how you tried to make me laugh, i really appreciate it so much. But now i know that what you told me at that time when i really just had t breakdown and cry, it all make sense. I know it now. You were the sun trying to shine again. I really don't know how to thank you. I promise you, i'll be stronger. I'll regain my strength. I have to let it go. With you and the rest around, i'm sure i'll regain my strength again in time.

Thank you Yussie. Thank You.

I'll be back with more updates. Especially the fun moments that has happened since my last update.

In memory of...

2008-10-21T14:41:00.006+08:00

Forever in all our hearts

A friend and a brother.

Sufyan Abdul Rashid

12.03.1985 - 20.10.2008

We'll miss you.

Performance @ the Park / SHAG-a-RAYA

2008-10-07T14:15:00.009+08:00

Date check: Saturday, 4th October 2008

Performance @ Admiralty Park

Events for the day:

Promised Yussie to meet @ 6am

Promised the rest to report by 6.30am

Slept @ 4.30am

Woke up @ 6.30am

Freaking LATE!

Security didn't know of performance

Had problems getting instruments

HOT weather

Crowd was plenty, but SENIOR crowd

Waiting time on stage was long

Crowd started leaving even before the Minister arrived

Performance rating: 4.5 / 5

Performance feeling: BURNING HOT(because of weather)

Beats Encore

The Green Girls

Do you realise one common person in all the pictures?

Sibuk jerr... Wahahahahaz

The 3 of us again and again...

Beats Encore on stand-by

Final briefing on stage.

Beats Encore in Action.

Went for lunch after performance.

Had lunch @ McDonalds Civic.

Lepak for awhile, eventhough i was already late to meet my family.

I went back to shower and change to my Raya clothes.

Went family visiting.

Super tired. Super SHAG!

Ate alot. All the food nice.

Got home, slept like a dead man.

Cik Wati's Family.

Suzuki APV, Toyota WISH, Mazda PREMACY.

Lets DRAW arms.

Aki & Atuk.

My sis and future bro-in-law.

I actually celebrate HARI RAYA!

Ngaahahahaha! Jyeahh!

Freaking Tired!

FOOD GALORE

2008-10-07T13:45:00.002+08:00

Date check: Friday, 3rd October 2008

FOOD GALORE!

What happened?

Went to school.

Wore baju kurong.

Coincidence, Me, Milly & Yussy, wore sort of "Black" color.

Milly & Yussy Going off @ 2nd break.

I Went off @ 2nd Break also.

We ate @ Cafe Galilee.

Yussy Went off first.

Milly accompanied me to Causeway Point.

I bought a new Headphone.

ATH-SJ3(Audio Technica)

Went back to school to meet Wan rocker and Izam to go for a briefing for the Admiralty park performance.

Went to Kenji Dot's practice.

Slept while they practiced.

Almost forgot about W25Q class gathering.

Took a cab to Causeway Point again.

Ate Swensens. Had Chilli Fish Pasta.

Chilled out at the carpark.

Played stupid games.

Met Wa Rocker & RDP @ track.

Go HOME!

Can you guess which food was eaten by who?

Me? Milly? Yussie?

The Ice-Chocolate was happening (in school ah).

Semangat beraya nampak.

2nd Day of Hari Raya... in school...

2008-10-07T13:36:00.002+08:00

Date Check: Thursday, 2nd October 2008

2nd Day Raya... in school?

What i did?

Went to school.

Enterprise module.

Faci didn't come.

Fucked up Facilitator.

Had last minute IJ practice.

Went home.

Future brother in-law and family @ home.

W26K People
W26K people... again

Once again... the 3 of us!

The Tribal Boys!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL'FITRI!

2008-10-07T11:36:00.004+08:00

Day Check: Wednesday, 1st October 2008

HARI RAYA!

Slept @ 4am.

Woke up @ 6am.

Went for Solat Aidil'fitri.

Went to Granny's(mum's side) Place.

Went to Granny's(dad's side) Place.

Went to a relative's place.

Too sleepy.

I went home by myself while my family went out for house visiting.

Slept like dead!

Thats all folks!

My family(from right)

My happening elder Bro, my cool Dad, my beloved younger Sister, my lovely Mother, oh... and then its ME.

Nak step video "Sepasang Kurung Biru"... tapi baju GOLD!
The displays in my Granny's house.
Seeking forgiveness.My Mum's siblings and their families. My super super most sayang-ed Granny and Grandfather In the middle.
Me & my cousins.

The cousins.

Last of Ramadhan! Syawal Menjelang Lagi!

2008-10-06T03:28:00.007+08:00

Day check: Tuesday, 30th September.

Which means that tomorrow is Hari Raya, and i am so in need of sleep.

In the morning, I sent my sister to work (thank god its just nearby) and i hard to send 70 empty ketupats to my granny's place. Not to forget 2 wooden-like surfaced carpets. When i got home after that, i could not resist the temptation of sleep.

Woke up at 10.45am. Supposedly i had to fetch my sis @ 11.15am. I reached her work place, only to be waiting for 1hr 15mins. She had some last minute lesson to teach and SHUCKS! I won't say more.

Went to CAUSEWAY POINT after work. Before i left home, told my Mama that i wanted to shop for Hari Raya(which is the next day), as i haven't bought a single thing. She also told me that she wanted to buy some flowers for decorations. Take a look @ what i got...

Who would believe that i actually shopped for flowers. But my sister helped of course. When choosing, i saw the branches, it gave me an idea to do a Harry Potter like kind of feel.

Oh, and i ended up buying 1 BIG Bath Sheet(towel) and 2 Hand Towel, both Green. A laptop screen cleaning wipes, a mini camera tripod(COOL SHIT) and .... gosh, i guess all that i bought got nothing to do with Hari Raya!

@ night, its the last break-fast of this RAMADHAN. Going to my granny's place to eat HARI RAYA dishes. I don't want to say anything much. Its just plain awesome.

Check out the pics...

The HUG!

2008-09-30T01:33:00.002+08:00

In response to someone...

Yes yes yes... The HUG!

The HUG we had!!! You're right, the feeling was indeed splendid!

Hahaz, i guess this Saturday we're going to be rasta!

The last performance was Jamaican color,

this time, its RASTA!

I'm wearing GREEN... then the two of you decide who wears yellow and red k?

Love you all!!!

SALAM DUNIA!

Happiness beyond words...

2008-09-30T00:25:00.000+08:00

"Ya'Allah, yang maha esa dan maha pengampun lagi maha penyanyang. Hambamu ini sungguh bersyukur. Hari ini, hari yang indah dan bahagia bagiku. Hatiku hanya penuh dengan syukur, keranamu Ya'Allah, kawanku telah kembali ke sisi teman-temannya yang sangat menyanyaginya dan merinduinya. Terima Kasih Ya'Allah. Hari ini menjadi hari yang aku janji, bahawa aku akan jaga teman-temanku ini. Aku akan menjaga hati mereka, menjaga mereka seperti ahli keluargaku sendiri. Aku tidak mahu menyakitkan hati mereka. Aku mahu mereka sentiasa bahagia. Semoga persahabatan kita akan kekal, hingga ke akhir hayat. Amin!"

Today brings alot of smile to me, to my heart. I was late, but she waited. Early in the morning already joked around, talked about F1 and all. Cool! Seeing her really smiling and laughing, it just brightens my day! It really brightens my day! I love you so much oh friend! I promise i won't do anything to hurt your feelings again! Missed you lots!!!

I skipped school and chilled with Wan SAMBA and Izham! Kecoh babe. We talked about music, and how being a musician is not only about music. We talk about how other things can relate to how good a musician can be. Then today, practice was fun. IZHAM!!! Its ok to do mistakes. At least you tried. I know you can do it. We believe in you!! As for the rest, i hope you all like the new song. BANGHRA HAPPENING EH! You all are damm happening tonight!!!

check this out... Our happening conversation of the night!

Yussie: SYAZ! AKU NAK MASAK AYAM MASAK ITIK!

Syaz: YUS! AKU NAK MASAK RENDANG MASAK GULA MERAH!

... and the story goes on... panjang giler!!! Saksikan Yussie dan Syaz di episode Seloka Lauk Raya! Fear factor version!

and then... the song of the night

"TING TA-TA TING-TANG TING"

Soon we'll make that song!

Today, walking home with Yussie, macam sing-along-session! Darn, we love BACKSTREET BOYS! Who says boybands aren't cool. Music is still music! We can be the new accapella duo in school. Cool or what? Oh and i asked her about playing the conga for my show, she is interested. We'll learn the songs and i'll make sure you can play it ok? You can do it! You got it in you!

I don't really want to type such a long entry tonight. Like i said, "Happiness Beyond Words". Anyways, going to head to bed soon. Tomorrow morning, i've got deliveries to make. I need my strength. Last day of puasa!

Ok i asked YUSSIE for her opinion... this is what she gave me:

Baju kurong... Gold or Brown? She choose GOLD!

Hair... Tie or Let go? She choose Let go!

Thanks gurl!

I talked to my best friend... Nina Pretty Ballerina... Today's main issue between me and her... SHE DON'T LIKE GUYS WITH LONG HAIR! this is the only thing we never agreed with each other. Hahaz. and it will last on 'till god knows when. luckily she already engaged! So lesser chance that might end up with her... and I DON'T HAVE TO CUT MY HAIR! hahahaz! Anyways, i know long hair or not, you'll still be my best friend kan? Kalau kau cakap tak... sumpah aku tak percaya. Wahahahaz. *Kau kan boyfriend and gossip partner aku. *Inside joke*. Dah lama tak bebual pasal gol and gencu eh? Stop it Syaz! Nina, aku sayang kau! You my best friend forever! Sayang nyer tahun ni, aku baru dapat jumpa kau skali jer! Enjoy kau nyer raya ngan TUNANG kau k? Oh... she and her tunang, the leg same size. Can exchange shoe! Cool or what? klakar pun ada ah. you are rare gurl!

Ok, i thought i don't want to write a long entry, i guessed i lied.

HAPPY NIGHT TO ALL OF YOU PEOPLE.

SALAM DUNIA, SALAM SEMUA, SALAM HARI RAYA, BERSINAR AKHIRNYA!!!

P/S: Yussie, nanti bila lauk Kari masak Kepala Semut aku dah siap, aku send some gi umah kau! Perangai Kau seh! Ngaaaa!

5th post of the day! One with greater meaning...

2008-09-28T20:56:00.003+08:00

I know you people might be thinking, why the hell am i writing so many posts in one day. I have no idea as well. Just to tell you, there is 5 in total. This is the last post of the day... I hope.

To a special friend of mine...

Yesterday, when i saw you there sitting, waiting for me, i really felt like hugging you and tell you that things will be alright and you'll be alright. But i know that it ain't time yet. I felt awkward too. Everytime i spoke, your try to give the shortest response you could. But i understand.

But the thing that made me happy yesterday, was that i was able to see you again, to see you laugh during practice. Somehow, we talked about this before. About how when we are playing music, it just puts away everything in our mind for that moment.

This is a friendship that really means something to me, and i dare to say that it means something to us. Like i said before. This is a friendship that started with nothing and grew into something big. In only a month, we felt total happiness and utter sadness. Something that don't usually happens to a friendship in such short time. But it takes a longer time to heal the wounds that has been caused. But just like any other wounds, it will heal. Some wounds leaves a scar, some don't. But even if it does, scars not necessarily be a reminder of a bad moment. Scars can be a reminder of a happy moment, a moment of victory over struggle. A moment of happiness over sadness.

Right now, the only thing that can bring you back to us is TIME. No matter how long it takes, we'll be waiting. No matter how long, I still love you, o'bestfriend of mine. We love you! I'll be looking forward to that moment when we would hug each other, cry if we have to, laugh if we could, and tell each other how much we miss, and how much we love one another. Tell each other of our sorry(s), and hope that from that moment on, we would go through the tough times together.

I know how much this song means to you. I didn't tell you this, but remember the card i made for you when i tried to cheer you up? The yellow and green card? and after that i went up for awhile and i told you i'd be right back. I actually asked the guy playing the piano if he could play for me a song. Actually i wanted him to play a song, so that i can dedicate it to you. But sadly, the guy was not really a pianist. Darn, plan backfired! I asked him to play you this song... I don't have the song with me, but its a song that you listened to when you were down, and i remembered you gave me a link to that song when i was down... but here is the lyrics.
(You can try to imagine me singing it also... oops, just kidding. Won't want to spoil the song for you. hehe.)

"Oh if someone writes a song
With a simple rhyme
Just a song
Where his feeling show
And if someone feels the same
About the simple song
Oh sometimes
You can hear them sing

Music gives you happiness or sadness
But it also, it also heals your soul

Let the music heal your soul
Let the music take control
Let the music give you
The power to move any mountain

Oh if someone plays piano
With some simple chords
So melodic
And endearing, too
And oh if someone plays guitar
With the old piano
And maybe
You can hear them sing

Music gives you happiness or sadness
But it also, it also heals your soul

Let the music heal your soul
Let the music take control
Let the music give you
The power to move any mountain"

Let the music heal your soul...

Your's Truly,
Syazni Sukarman.

P/S: "Aku doakan agar hatimu cepat sembuh. Amin."

I don't know what title to put...

2008-09-28T20:38:00.006+08:00

I see this picture of the sunset, it just so reminds me of US.

Today, i was looking at our pictures. I just felt like posting them all again.

Think of the less fortunate this Raya!

2008-09-28T19:43:00.004+08:00

Ladies & Gentlemen, Fellow friends and Muslims,

I'm sure right now, most of us are in an excited and happy mood. Firstly, the month of Ramadhan is coming to a close. Which means that we have all gone through a month of Fasting. A month of self-control. Don't forget, that it doesn't mean that we have control ourselves from the temptations of eating and drinking during this month, means that we have overcome this battle. It is good in this month of blessings that we sit down at night and we reflect on ourselves. How has this Ramadhan differ from any other Ramadhan(s) we have been through?

No one has to know about this. As long as you know, and you make a point to change that, then that is your path to a better life. Ramadhan is a month of blessings. But some may think, when is it that they get more bad happenings in this month? I personally faced quite a few major down moments in this month. But is that really something bad? Or is it a sign that it will be better?

Imagine a caterpillar, when it gets wrapped in a cocoon, don't you think that is kinda suffering. Being stuck in a cocoon for some time. Not knowing what will happen. But, look what happens after they break out of it. They turn into a nice butterfly. I guess that cycle simply explains to us about life. Doesn't mean something brings you down, you won't be able to get the beauty of it.

I pray that whatever has happened in this month, it is a sign that it will be better.

My main issue that i would like to bring out today would be... Poverty.

I know that some of these images might be disturbing, but this is the real thing. This is whats going on out there. These people are suffering. Look around you. I'm sure all of you, by today, have mostly prepared for this coming Hari Raya. While we are here being happy and excited, these less fortunate people out there are suffering. I am not talking about those in our sunny island. But look at those beyond our borders. Poverty as a result of conflicts, wars. Children suffering with no home, no parents, with nothing. All they have is just the basic survival needs. Some don't even have that.

I've seen documentaries on these people, and i am surprised to look at how strong they are. Even these children. No proper homes, clothes, food... but still they could live each day with a smile.

I know that it is not an easy thing to fight poverty. But sometimes, helping one another does not mean being able to help physically or monetarily. What i am saying is that, this Hari Raya, when we celebrate it with our loved ones, don't forget those who are also celebrating it, but not as nicely as us. Don't forget our fellow muslims out there. In these last 2 nights of Ramadhan, put both your hands together, up high, and pray... pray for these people. Pray that they will be shown the light to a better life. Pray that these poverty would one day end. Pray that they would be given proper shelter, home, clothes, food. Pray for their lives, for the children of the world, for their security, for their health.

Lastly, PRAY FOR A BETTER WORLD... FOR YOU, FOR ME, FOR OUR CHILDREN & THEIR CHILDRENS, AND FOR THE ENTIRE HUMAN RACE.

To all my fellow muslims,

I wish you a good life, and i wish you the best in these last 2 nights of RAMADHAN & also, i wish you all, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

A child praying for a safer life.

Raise your hand and put and END TO POVERTY!

Please don't runaway again...

2008-09-28T12:24:00.002+08:00

This post is meant for someone.
It is in good heart and good will.

Dear Friend/Jiran/Sister/Good Friend...

I don't know which one to to refer you to, because you are all of the above. Do you know that seeing you being the way you are the other day, i was really shocked, afraid, i panic. Was i at fault? Did i say something wrong? Did i hurt your feelings? Did i make you cry?

I know what we talked about before you tried to hold back your tears. I saw your face changed from a smiling face to a face that is full of sadness. From where i was sitting, it looked like one of those moments where you just can't find the strength to stay strong and not let yourself cry. But you just had to. I said all those things about you, because i cared for you very much. I didn't want you to end up hurting other people's feelings or worse, getting your own feelings hurt. But i really didn't mean that you should change immediately.

Remember this one particular day, when you were all down, worried about your friends who still have not found the seriousness in them, then you don't know why, but you felt so down the whole night? Do you remember? Do you also remember that i was trying slowly to help you figure out what is disturbing your mind? I just want to be there to help you in these times when you are confused or should i say "lost". I want to help you to be able to make decissions. But i really didn't mean for you to do it immediately. I want to help you. But maybe perhaps i shouldn't.

When i saw you being the way you are then, i was scared. Its something about you i've never seen before. You didn't want to look at me and talk to me. You gave me the kind of feeling that its better that if i wasn't there at all. I just had to know what was disturbing you, because it seems like it was me. I felt that my words had offended you real bad.

Remember when i was all angry and upset, and i kept it to myself. You were the one who told me that what i did, was instead of keeping it to myself, i end up making everyone felt bad. Which is not good. You told me that i should tell you people what i feel because i treat you all like a family. Now i know what it felt like when people come to you and asked if i was alright, because that was exactly what happened, only this time around, asking me about you.

When you asked me, "Why should I worry about you?"... I felt like a knife went through my chest. Should i even get such a question? And when i chased after you, you just told me "Apa kau nak dari aku?"... It really darn pierced me. It really did. But that night, when i read something you wrote, it sure hell felt like an axe, used to chop off a part of you.

Honestly this was what i felt and the questions in my mind...Why? What happened? Was it my fault? Was it me? Why won't you look at me? Why won't you speak to me? Why did you have to run away? Where was i? Was i not needed? Was what i said wrong? Did i deserve this? ... and more...

But i understand now that you just need your space. You need your time. You need to be with those whom you really would prefer to be with. People who really knows you.

I'm very sorry for everything i said that offended you in anyway. I apologise for everything. Aku sayang persahabatan kita. A friendship that was built with nothing, and it grew into something
big. That is why i wrote what other feelings i have in my book. So that it won't have to affect our friendship. Kau dah macam kawan baik & also adik kepada aku. I'd do anything to treasure and protect this friendship of ours. I also love this professionalism we have. To see you just walk away, aku takut kau tak akan pusing balik. Aku risau. Aku dapat rasa kan kekosongan di hati 2 orang kawan bila kamu tidak hadir tanpa apa-apa kata. We respect your need for space and time. Time. We pray that through time, it will give you back the strength that you need to pick yourself up again. And through time, it will bring this friendship to greater heights.You are greatly missed, by me, by us.

When you're ready, we'll be here waiting. We'll be here for you. I can't wait to go to school with you like we always do, i can't wait to walk that route home after practices with a friend who i can joke around with, talk about things, share good and bad moments, talk about music. Shake your hand, and give you hug before you go home, a symbol of greater days of friendship to come.

You told me before, we need to be "Strong", we need to "Trust". Trust is the very key to everything. "Love" builds with "Trust". I trust that you will be ok through time. I trust that time will bring you back to us, and once again, we build this friendship better.

P/S: "Sanggup", "Sentak", "Johore Singapura", "Yakon tari"... and many more... words reminds me of a wonderful family of friends we have...

Oh... and a tribe won't be complete without its princess. Hehe.Take care o'dear friend of mine.
Will be seeing you again soon aight!

Your's Truly,
Syazni Sukarman.

Just when i was about to pick myself up...

2008-09-28T01:13:00.006+08:00

Last week was filled with emotions, but those emotions didn't end just there. This week, emotions ran around more wildly and drastically.

Monday & Tuesday was quite good. On Monday, i got to meet her. After so long of arguing, of seperation, finally we got to meet again. But not on a very good note. She came to my school, to meet me, to give me back my things. Things which gave great meaning and memories of me to her. I understood why she had to return me those things. Just that when i saw her then, there is this part of me inside that wished if only things were better. Somehow she was there. Eventhough i was angry, i was sad, i honestly say, i really miss her alot. Seeing her there, i felt like hugging her, holding her hands again, even maybe give her a kiss to tell her that everything is going to be ok. But i can't. I can't. That is why i had to ask Yussie and Milly to accompany me. I really needed them to be there. I don't want to drown in tears again.

"Thank you so much for the wonderful memories we had. The precious moments spent. The love, the care, the companion... Thank you for everything. Kalau ada jodoh, tak kan ke mana-mana. Take very good care of yourself. I know i haven't really been there for you, even as a friend. That is because i just need to get myself moving forward first. I hope you understand. Even sometimes it hurts to say this, but i hope that you'll find someone who is the man of your dreams. Someone whom can naturally fit in to be with you. Lastly, i hope you remember me always, as i will always remember you.

Always loving you and always being a friend for you...
Syazni Sukarman."

So there it went. Monday, 22nd September, was our official broke-up date.

Practice was as usual after school. This time, we fixed on structures for the "dance song". I was happy with them. They can now play the song without even having me there to lead. The team building is moving.

Tuesday also was quite a good day. But then, we did something funny. Me, Yussie, Milly and Ninseh were late. Then we decided to DLLS(dah lambat, lambatkan skali). But hey, guess what, we ended up walking to our spot and hell... we didn't go to class... AGAIN!

Practice after that was held @ our spot and was conducted by... THEM! I could see all of them working together, trying to create a fix structure for the "intro song".
"Yussie, slow ok? Keep practising and you'll get that conga rhythm soon. Jyeahh!"
I really am happy that they really are working towards playing as a unit.

For the first time, we all buka at our spot. We made it as though it was our home. Anyways, Wan, Fai and Faiz, volunteered to help me lead the B.E people for the finale practice the next day. Since i already fixed on a locked structure, i printed the structure for them. Anyways, while the team was trying to play the "2nd song", Wann sort of changed the Surdo rhythm, and hell, it sounded darn good. I tweaked the snare rhythms abit and the Surdo, and while they were playing it, i could image alot of stuff to add on, like for eg, electric guitar, bass, keyboards, and a whole lot of other percussion instruments. We'll make that our new song for other events k?

Wednesday, I could not make it for B.E practice. I had performance with TerraVakka @ No.5, emerald hill. It was their beach party, as they have it every year. Anyways, before that, I know Yussie promised she would go with me to my show, but i understand, so i thought she would go for B.E instead, but actually she forgotten all about it. Ok, i was quite upset at first, but hey, i understand lah. She's always with us. In the end she cancelled all plans with whom she had made on that day. She went to highlight her hair. At least she walked with me to CWP after school. Thanks for waiting Yussie.

Show with TerraVakka was great. Simple but shiok. After that we hang out for supper. Long time never hang out with them.

Thursday. I really don't want to remember this day. But it happened and at the same time, i cannot forget it. All i can say is... I panic! Really was Panic!

After school, Only half of IJ came to my place. She didn't come. Even my mum told me to send the food to her, but can't do so. She wouldn't respond to me or the others. I really hope you're ok.

I really didn't sleep that night. The whole night, i keep going down to grab a puff or two. My mind was just not at ease. My heart felt like its exploding. I felt like i've lost everything that day. Everything. Eventhough we are just friends, but that is what makes it even more harder. Because we are friends. To lose a friend is worse!

I was freaking early for school on Friday. Firstly, she replied me in the morning saying she is not going to school. When i was in class, everyone asked me why i am so quiet and down, i just didn't know how to tell them. All i could do was keep quiet.

During 2nd break, I sat all alone at our spot. I feel like screaming out loud. WE MISS YOU!!! I MISS YOU!!! Its like having a sister gone missing. That was how it felt. I just wished you had at least given me a call or reply to my messages. But another friend told me, perhaps you needed time. And i guess they are right.

Saturday... which is just now.
We had practice for next Saturday and Monday's show. We did Samba-Reggae-Bhangra. Its called SamGaeBra. Credits to those who were present today. You were all great.

The best thing! I called her in the morning, she pickep up. She met me to go to school together and we went back together. Ok, still abit quiet and i know she is still trying to get back to her feet. But during practice, seeing her smile and laugh again, darn it just lights up the darkness. I'm glad you're back o' good friend. But i hope you'll come back with your full-self again soon. We really miss you.

I changed my BlogSkin. Coolio-Oreo-Cheesecake!

This goes to everyone who have brought a great meaning to me! IJ

2008-09-21T21:46:00.003+08:00

To my brothers, sisters, my motivations, my inspirations, my strengths...

I would like to take this wonderful moment, in this month of blessings to apologise for what have happened in this past week or so. I am deeply greatful and honoured for having the chance to get to you each and everyone of you. Until today, created a bond so close, unseen by our very eyes, but felt by our very hearts.

After what was said and shared on friday night, i've come to realise something that i did not notice until then. That is perhaps we have been doing this thing that we do for quite some time that i felt like i have put too much expectations on you people and that i forget that we are all still learners. I forget how the feeling was when i was still in all your shoes. I forget what it was like to do mistakes. I forget what it was like to support when another when things go wrong. Most importantly, i forget about myself. All i wanted was to produce a standard that could be considered far better from others. I wanted you all to be with me, and by doing so, i am actually pushing you all further from me. That is where my mistake was.

Alot of things have been happening to me this past few weeks. Even minutes before i wrote this. Yes, i am a man. But i am an ordinary man, who have fears. My emotions recently went all over. My mind is blocked and my heart is not at ease. But i try my best not to mix it all up. If i am angry during practice, its not because of any other personal things. Trust me.

On that friday night, i was so dissapointed that i could not find myself to talk to you people. Not that i hate, but because i love you all. I was afraid to tell you all my dissapointment because i did not want you all to feel dissapointed. But what i did was actually bringing you all down with me. I am sorry.

You all have been the sunshine when the rain was falling on me. I love you all so much. It was wrong for me to say some of those things i said on Friday after the rehearsals. When we had our group hug, i felt the kind of feeling that i never felt before. Tears running down from my eyes. Tears of joy that i have you people at this time. You have all been like a family to me in these short time.

This is my promise to all of you IJ. I won't give up. Starting from this Monday, we're gonna forget all the fancy-smancy stuff and lets get back to one thing. TOGETHER-NESS. Lets bring back all the positivity. Lets function as a unit this time. A unit that goes on even when one is down. A unit that can be independant, but when together, are indestructable. I promise that we will make it through, and lets make every practice from now on a more serious yet memorable and enjoyable one.

YUSSIE, MILLY, YANIE, FAIZ, FAI, WANN, DAN, NATT, ROSY, NINI...

This is my promise to you all. Aku sayang korang sangat2. So help me in these times when i am lost, so that i can come back and be there to help all of you together as a team.

Thanks Yussie.... i still remember .... "be strong"

From someone who loves and care very much for all of you...

Syazni Sukarman.

What a week!

2008-09-21T16:21:00.008+08:00

If i had to choose a word to describe this week, i don't think i can.

A week filled with tiredness, fatigue, mind blocks, sadness, happiness, excitement, togetherness, anger, frustration, dissapointments, tears, guilt, negativity.

Emotions running around wild and loose. Leaving no control.

The result,

CHAOS.

...But who says chaos was bad?...

Monday, Sept 15th

Came to school, my laptop could not log in. Password problem. Had to go to IT help desk. Thanks to my classmates who accompanied me. Cool day in class. Had debate. Intense is the word. But all for the sake of the lesson.

We swapped practice day with HiakDush(Amino's group).

Initial intention: Come up with a song for "Guest Welcoming" during our concert.

In the end: Ending up in the instrument store room, i shared with some of them some techniques on hand percussion. Which i wish i can share it with the whole of Beats Encore.

Break-fast: We ate @ TRCC Cafe. Yussy ate with her friends. Milly keep saying Yussy bueh! haha. We had brownie with ice-cream for dessert.

After Break-fast: IJ discussed about buying materials for our costumes. We planned to skip class the next day and go on costume hunting. They suggested i drove.

Meeting time for tomorrow: 9am, Admiralty MRT.

@Night: YUSSY gave me a shock when she said she is not going for the costume hunt and just logged off from msn without really saying why? Called and sms her, no results.

What we did: Emergency Meeting involving me, Yanie and Milly. All of us didn't know if she was kidding or she was serious at that time. Msn... Hard to tell.

____________________

Tuesday, 16th Sept

Early in the morning: Msg Yussy again. Still no reply.

She replied at 7.57am: "Pegi lah. mane leh tk gi."

Reaction: COOL! i got conned by her... AGAIN! (in a good way)

1st set of Destinations:

1 - Pick Yussy at her block.

2 - Pick the rest up @ Admiralty MRT. (Milly, Yanie, Natt, Ninseh, Rozy Mak Joyah)

3 - Go to school, meet up with Fai, Wann and Faiz to collect money for the costumes.

@ School:

Took pictures while waiting. Relationship problem rised again. Was quite pissed. Was lucky that i had friends there. Not so bad.

2nd set of Destinations:

1 - Arab street. Bought cloth for costumes.

2 - Look for Feathers. Bought Mask for Yussy.

3 - Bras Basah. Looked for face paint.

4 - Arab Street. Zam-Zam. Bought food for break-fast. eg, Murtabak, Bryani...

5 - Dropped Ninseh off at Woodlands MRT.

6 - Dropped the rest, except Yussy at school first because they looked tired.

7 - Went back home to put the things we bought at my house. Thanks Yussy for helping me out.

8 - Went back to school for practice.

Physical and mental condition: EXHAUSTED.

Practice status: Abit No Energy.

Break-Fast: Me & Yussy shared the Nasi Bryani and Murtabak. Can see that she darn hungry and loving the bryani ayam. Great appetite for a girl.

After practice status: Hurt my finger during practice. Yussy hurt hers too and other injury reports.

On the way home: Walking along the roads of woodlands again with Yussy. She was sleep walking. I was not tired but still had this thing to go on walking.

____________________

Wednesday, 17th Sept

Came to school. All tired and exhausted. Lack of sleep

It was science module. Problem was abit confusing. Could not see the link between the problem and the topic. I only attended half the class. Don't why, i was tired, but my body was hyper-active. Kept dancing around. Crazy.

I went for STEREOWAVE practice. We practiced songs we wanted to play this Saturday @ the Scape WeekTrip.
Ne-yo - Closer
Orson - No Tomorrow, Ain't No Party
Moloko - Sing It Back
Our very own original - Crowds are Going Insane

Quite a few of the B.E people skipped school. After STEREOWAVE practice i went to slack @ the practice room with Amino and her team. Syida and Sham also were there. I was very exhausted out of a sudden that i went into a deep sleep. The only thing i remembered was that Amino woke me up, telling me that we need to get out of the room. I went outside, and i slept again. Sham and the rest woke me up and told me that the rest are waiting downstairs. I seriously thought they were kidding because if they had came already, i would have heard the loud noises. Ok, so what the hell, i just woke up, still in a daze, went to the conference room. Yup, they were already waiting alright. My bad. I had gone into a deep sleep that i didn't know or heard anything.

Practice:
Continued to work on the finale piece. Supposedly to be completed today. I don't know why, through the minutes of that practice, frustration began to grow in me. I just had to control it. Slowly, when things weren't going the way it should, i just had to let it out. I can't control the frustration no more.

To the Beats Encore people:
I'm really sorry for yelling at you people the other time. I really felt frustrated that for weeks and weeks we've been doing almost the same thing yet everyone still felt unsure. Eventhough there were changes, but the beats still remained the same. I apologise sincerely for that. Hope you all understand and i seek forgiveness from all of you. Lets try to work harder and make the practices more enjoyable.
-SyaZ-

After practice:
Yanie, Yussy, Milly, Nini, Rosy, Haikal, Nana, myself... did i left anyone out?
They wanted to play bunga api. Cool or what? It was cool. At that point of time, i really don't know why but i was so down. My body was not tired but my mind was. I really wish i could join you all in the moment of fun. All i could do was to put myself to sleep even for a few minutes.

On the way home:
Tonight, we took the bus!

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Thursday, 18th Sept

I would sum up this day to a minimal.

Basically i had a great day today. This is perhaps the day i needed. A day away from the loud sounds. I do love those loud sounds, but sometimes there comes a day when you just want to have a sense of peace in the mind.

Class was fun. We played card games, and all i was looking forward to was to go for break-fast with the guys and girls in my class.

Syuk, Zee, Wanie, Hafiz, Caliph and Daryl.
We went to Al-Ameen @ Woodlands for break-fast.

After that:
We hang out, chilled out and took pictures!

Check it out:

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Friday, 19th Sept

I just want to talk about what happened during rehearsals.

I was happy @ first. I felt that IJ was prepared for this rehearsal. We practiced hard for it. This time around, all the teams improved.

La'Dunges - Better song structure

Kenji Dot - Your song structure was fantastic. First time looking at you all performing as the whole group.

HiakDush - Better than the last rehearsals

but the part that made me really cry inside was when it was my group's turn

IbanJiwarr - Where was the togetherness? The music? The moves? Where? What happened? Why?

After our turn, i was left in silence. I could not speak. The thing that made it even worse, why did the whole group dissapear after that? Yes, you all wanted to collect your food that you ordered, but why must it be the whole group?

During break-fast:

I know you all kept asking if i am ok or am i angry. I just could not find myself to speak. I was totally in a mess. My mind totally went off and i totally went down. After i got my 1st bite of my food, i remembered about Fadilla. I don't know why. I went to look for her at the cafe. She was not feeling well. I wanted to know if she had already buka or not. I called her, ok, the 2nd time i called her then she answered. She was buying something at 7-11. Cool.

Fadilla, must take care ok!

After break-fast:

Evaluation of groups.

Actually, i think IJ knows what went on after this. I really don't feel like typing this down because it really was not a good thing to remember. But we have to learn from our mistakes.

I'll end today's summary here...

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Saturday, 20th Sept

STEREOWAVE @ Scape, Youth Park

Weekend Trip

The sound set-up was fantastic. Eventhough it was tiring to play, i didn't feel like stopping.

But where was the crowd?

I wish you all were there!

After that:

I miss my secondary school friends. I went to meet them to break-fast and we chilled at orchard after that. It was fun.

Orange Julius Strawberry Cheesecake Blizzard!

We haven't had this kind of chilling session in a while.

Farhan, Ben, Imran & Shirin, Tauhid & Girlfriend.

LOVE YOU ALL LOTS!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY NINA!!!

2008-09-15T01:30:00.004+08:00

HAPPY

24TH

BIRTHDAY

NINA!!!

happy birthday to you!

happy birthday to NINA!

happy birthday to you!

YEAY!

Today my bestfriend is 24 already. Amacam? Gerek tak? Best tak?

Wah!!! Kau dah dapat present gerek-gerek dari tunang and adik kau seh.

My message and wishes to you:

Sorry gurlfwen! Its your birthday. I can't meet you, i don't have any present for you, but all i can give is this sincere wish for you. I wish you have a very good birthday. Semoga Allah, memberkatimu, murahkan rezekimu dan panjangkan umurmu. I also hope that all your wishes do come true.

Happy 24th Birthday my dear Best Friend.

-SyaZ-

A Saturday filled with fun.... and LIGHTS

2008-09-14T21:56:00.013+08:00

13th September 2008

Photography: Yussy & Syaz
Editing: Syaz

Here we go again!

I planned to go to peninsula today because i had to get a green or yellow t-shirt for the performance at night. I had a yellow t-shirt but it had gone into the washing machine by mistake. So i called Yussy up and told her to meet up at 12.30pm. Yussy, thanks eh. Kau selalu sudi ikut aku.

It didn't took long to get my t-shirt. I just went to my usual store, SpitFire, and got myself a green t-shirt. After that, we walked around peninsula plaza, and then followed by Funan IT Mall.

We discovered there was nothing much at Funan, so we decided to head on down to Marina Square as we still had quite alot of time to spare. And the last destination was Esplanade. It was a last minute outing. When at the Esplanade rooftop, it felt as though like we were on a date. Were we? Casual date? Red Date? Whats the date?... SNAP... Bluek! Like Yussy said, WTH!

*You broke my heart for 0.5 sec... Wahahahahaz. Ok... dah Syaz. Cukop! Ngahahaha (Faiz laughter)

One thing is for sure, the rooftop outing became a photoshoot session. Check out the pictures. We got 2 photographers in the house!

Yussy's Photoshoot. Photography by Syaz.

Syaz's Photoshoot. Photography by Yussy.

Check it out, the two percussionist from Cairo!

Time's up. Time to head back to school. We promised Milly that we'll meet him at Toa Payoh station and we'll go to school together. Its the 3 of us again, for the *i don't know how many times this week. But its fun being with you 2. Milly was in an all yellowish outfit. SPONGEBOB!

Green, Yellow and Black. JAMAICA!

More JAMAICANan poses.

Look at the sunset. Dah masuk WAKTU berbuka puasa.

School sponsored the food. Rezeki jangan ditolak, walaupun kalau boleh nak tolak.

A thirsty SPONGEBOB and a Stevie Wonder wannabe.

So we made a move from school to Mandai Tekong Park, which is like so near to my house. We went by bus catered by the school. Darn, the crowd was hype. It was the Lantern Festival. The sounds, the lights, it was HOT... and i mean like temperature HOT.

I just discovered that SOMEONE is afraid of the lion dance. But anyways, the excitement was high as the crowd was was a crowd. But its not those young and happening crowd. Nonetheless, they are still a crowd. For the first time in B.E, i'm playing surdo. Cool or What? Sadly, the performance felt so fast. But it was fun.

After the performance, Me, Yussy, Milly and Fadila went to starbucks. Ok we bought a drink at starbucks but we didn't actually sit there. Fadila and Milly went off first. Me and Yussy we left abit later. While walking we had this topic to talk about. Dealing with awkwardness. A long, open and subjective topic. Which lasted throughout our whole journey home.

There it went, my whole Saturday. Fun? You got to be there to know it...

GREEN, YELLOW AND BLACK. 2008.

Tracking back some dates... Part 3/3

2008-09-14T20:06:00.006+08:00

12th September 2008

I don't know why, The night before, while walking home, Me & Yussy were talking about after the Reflections concert, we want to go on and ton somewhere. Then its cool if i could drive, then we travel around. The when i woke up in the morning, and realise that my sister was not working, which means that my dad won't have to send her to work, and i don't have any plans after school, i asked my dad for the car keys and i drove to school.

I called Yussy up before i left home and told her to wait for me at her void deck. I guess i didn't mention that i was driving to school because she look surprised when i reached her void deck. She was so happy when she got into the car. I knew that feeling. I had it once before.

ANNEEEYYWWWAAAAYYYYYSSSS.... SUURRPPRRIISSEE YUSSY! Your ride is HERE!

Before i drove off, she told me that Faiz, Wann, Fai all had plans to skip class together with the rest of the girls. Then we waited for them at the Woodlands MRT drop off point.

Now lets go to the main highlight of the day...

Me, Yussy and Milly met up in school. Yes we skipped class again. Me and Yussy did a promise that we would not skip class again for the next 2 weeks unless its for an important reason. Yussy wanted to look for her green top. So we decided to go to Suntec City.

I feel sad for Yussy because she from so excited, then abit dampened by the fact that she can't find what she wanted to look for. From Suntec City, to Bugis Village, to Parco Bugis Junction to Causeway Point. So sorry Yussy!!!

In the end, she found what she wanted when she went out with her friends at night.

*who says Geylang tak jual t-shirt hijau... hehe.

A panaromic effect using my handphone.

Look at her smile!

Yussy & Milly! Images on the highway.

Pictures @ Suntec City

Iban Jiwerr. 2008.

Tracking back some dates... Part 2/3

2008-09-14T18:51:00.006+08:00

10th September 2008

I don't really have much to say for this day. The main highlight was, me and Yussy, we were late for school. Not too late actually. I know my friend is kind of down, and i was kinda tired and my mind was kind of occupied. This was what we said:

Syaz: "Haiz, penat seh. Kalau ikot kan hati macam nak gi library lepak and tido."

Yussy: "Eh, ok jugak. Nak kape?"

Syaz: "Serious? Sembarang ah..."

...... and there we went to the library......

We hang out at the library. "Lepak". I even managed to catch a nap. Yussy helped me create my blog. This blog you're reading now. All thanks to her for helping me with it.

Yussy and i thought of going to change location to TRCC. We did, and guess what? We found a new hang out spot. A very comfortable hang out spot. There was a coffee table, a sofa, and can even make our own make-shift bed. Radically KEWL!

Milly joined us during his 2nd break. Alot of the *IJ* didn't come. Sadly, i have to go for mass practice later. Yussy and Milly had plans so they are not coming. Well, i tried to convince them to come, but to no avail.

And about practice, i really don't feel like talking about it.

Our new hang out spot!

Tracking back some dates... Part 1/3

2008-09-14T18:18:00.007+08:00

8th September 2008

Pizza Night

It was Monday. As usual, another practice day for Iban Jiwerr. Everyone was there except Dan. He called me last minute to tell me that he had his Practicals for his License. Yanie was at hip-hop, but she did joined us just in time to buka puasa together.

We were suppose to start at 5pm, but the guys from RDP wanted to use the room for about an hour. So we started at 6pm. Its good to be helping one another, especially during this fasting month. So the beginning of the practice session was abit weak. I understand. Everyone is fasting, and everyone is tired. Still, we just had to push ourselves.

Before practice officially started, i helped Yussy to figure out how to do abit of solo and fills to the Conga. She is quite a fast learner. Now she is able to at least solo abit. We did a few changes to the song. Basically the structure still remains the same. We only edit abit on what Phillip commented to us during our last mass practice.

OH YES!!! We had PIZZA for Buka puasa. Very nice, very filling.

Practice resumed as usual after that. We did a video recording of our playing. We also did a "funny, lame" documentary & interview about our group. The video is not up yet, but once it is, i'll be sure to let you all know.

Pictures from that day:

The Pizza does surely looks delicious.
We ordered 4 large pizzas. Cool or what?

Individuals from Iban jiwerr.

Iban Jiwerr. 2008.

QUIZ QUIZ QUIZ

2008-09-14T03:54:00.010+08:00

1. The person who tag you is?

(*in triplet)

"WhoLivesInApineappleUnderTheTree"?

...MILLY...

2. Your relationship with him/her is?

*IJ*

Fellow tribe mate.

Schoolmate.

Good friend.

3. Your five impressions of him/her?

Funny, Outrageous, Bombastic, Cool, Hyped.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?

Being there to support me, even when he was caught in the heavy rain!

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?

"its always YUSSY!"

Wahahahaz!

6.If he/she become your lover, you will?

Dude, i'm straight!

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?

OK. Lets not even go there!

8.If he/she become your enemy, you will?

Eat his PINEAPPLE house!

9.If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?

He go and join the jellyfishes!

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is

Be a better percussionist and a better performer.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is.

EXCELLENT!

The rest of the quiz is the same as before...

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1. The person who tag you is?
YUSSY!!!

2. Your relationship with him/her is?

Jiran/Neighbour.
A very good friend.
Walking partner.

3. Your five impressions of him/her?
Friendly, Cool, Outgoing, Caring, Semangat.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Being there to support me during my band finals @ Scape.

She surprised me because she told me she couldn't make it

the night before. So yeah!

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
"be STRONG ok Syaz?"...

6.If he/she become your lover, you will?
Can that happen? *IJ*

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?
I don't see anything wrong with her. Later when become then will find out.

Wahahahaz. SyaZ macam paham.

8.If he/she become your enemy, you will?
Kahwin & Pindah rumah sebelah.

9.If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?
Never send kueh-kueh and Nasi Lemak to my house. Hehe.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is
Help her pray that her dreams will come true.

Help her be a better hand percussionist.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is.
She is darn Nice & Kewl. A good friend to have around.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
Maybe what i can do is set this as an "RJ" question.

13. The characters you love of yourself are.
Sociable (am i?), Friendly, Merepek (Sometimes)

14.On the contrary, the characteristics you hate most about yourself are?
If i hate that characteristic, i don't think i'll even have it within me.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is.
SyaZ.
With Giovanni Hidalgo's hand percussion skills

Carter Beauford's drum skills.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them.
GREEN with LOVE to you all.

I LOVE YOU ALL.

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you.

(Names of those who have blogs only)

1. Yussy
2. Milly
3. Rozey
4.Yanie
5. Faiz
6. Ninie
7. Yana Kechik
8. Syukri WeeWee (my classmate)
9. Amino Acid
10. Nina Pretty Ballerina

18.Who is no.6 having relationship with?
I ain't got a clue.

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
Female.

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
I don't know. They don't know each other.

21. What is no.2 studying about?
Darn, i can't believe i'm about to say this... I'm not sure!

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
Very hard to keep track. Makcik Joyah!

23. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
Reggae, Ska, i guess... wahahahaz!

24. Does no.1 have any siblings?
YES! All the names almost the same!

25. Will you woo no.3?
Don't think so.

26. How about no.7?
Don't think so also. She makes a cute friend!

27. Is no.4 single?
Ain't too sure though.

28. What is the surname of no.5?
Does he even have one?

29.What’s the hobby of no.10?
Gossipping with her BESTFRIEND (*hint hint)

StereoWave: A Drummer's Story

2008-09-12T22:29:00.018+08:00

6th SEPTEMBER 2008

My heartfelt thanks to all those who came to support. You people gave me one of the best nights of my life. My heartfelt thanks also to the person responsible for taking this picture.

Event: Jam Aloud 2, by NUSME

Band name: STEREOWAVE
Band no: 5
Songs Played: Ain't No Party (Orsons),
Crowds are Going Insane/No One (StereoWave/Alicia Keys)
Results: 1st Runner-Up (A contract with Ben & Jerry's)

StereoWave. A new hit in the crowd. Formed by a group of Republic Polytechnic's resident students. It was only a month ago, during the audition rounds, that we started coming together to do what our heart desires. That is music.

1 Jamming session and a few practices in school was what we had done to get ourselves prepared for the auditions. Honest opinion from me, we were so not prepared at all. Structures still weren't clear, lack of practices and all.

We wanted to play songs that would get the crowd going. For the auditions, we covered two songs. This Love by Maroon 5, and the all groovy dance hit, Sing It Back by Moloko. We made it through and here we are. This time at Scape, playing for the finals. The only prize that we really wanted was the contract with Ben & Jerry's. Sharime would have still prefered if we had won the Gibson guitar. Lets get to the main highlight, the Finals.

I would like to emphasize that it is the Finals. It simply means that this is the part where we got to be 100% ready. Ok, we kind of were mentally, but musically, again, we only had 1 proper jam session. Structures still weren't clear and remembered. I'm sorry and i apologise to some of my band members if i was abit too serious a few hours before we went on stage. I just had to make sure that everyone is on the same channel. If we were to lose, at least we could say we did our best. We even did a last min practice, vocally inside Scape while waiting for the other 4 bands to play. The band before us was Quasimodo, and i think everyone agrees, they are darn good. Lets face it, their band is thight, their music was good. They had stage presence. They had it all. Even as a competitor, i would say they really deserve to be the Winner, which in fact they did.

It was raining again that night. Somehow, i thought maybe the rain would be a blessing for the band. It rained when we were on the way to our auditions, and it rained again today before we could make our way to the stage. Just before the show, i was all ready to get the show going. When we got on stage, that was exactly what we did.

StereoWave. 2008.

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Related article to above.

Personally, i really can't believe that i would be playing in a Finals of a competition. The feeling was great. But that night, it was not all about wanting to win the prize, or it was not just about the music anymore. It was also about feelings and emotions.

The night before:
I spread the word about the Finals, hoping that my dear friends would come and support me andmy band. Sadly, i started to hear people telling me they could not make it. On msn, people's PM also saying that they could not make it. Yussy, also told me she can't make it. Only Yanie said she would come but after watching her hip-hop show thing. Yup, definately there was that bit of sadness, but i just could not let it affect my performance the next day.

The Morning:
I woke up early. We were suppose to meet up in EMP room first in school before we head on to Scape. Before i left home, i don't know why but i just told myself that I would bring the CareBear with me, and i pray that she would come, and so would the rest of my Iban Jiwerr and B.E friends.

I also promised myself that, if really she did come down, i would give that CareBear to her.

The NIGHT:
It was raining, my mind all focused on the performance, Fadila was there. Furthermore she knew most of my band members, or maybe all. After getting all prepared to do a kickass performance, i just felt that there was something missing. Shawn had his friends came down, John and Sharime both had their girlfriend down. WenXun also had his friend came down to support. Now, that leaves it with only me. Who i had to come down and support? Not really anyone. Except for Yanie who messaged me saying she was on the way.

OK, the band name is out, the introduction is out, time to get on stage. Now, this moment, this particular moment, if i could freeze it, i would. As i was walking to my drumset, suddenly i heard voices calling out my name. As most of you all know, i have bad night vision. But when i looked up, that emptiness, suddenly turned all happy and colorful and full of vibes. There they were and there she was. Yussy actually came with the rest. Which means that after the show, the CareBear would have a new caretaker. They really made my night. At that point in time, all my sadness, sorrows, troubles went away. When i saw them, all i could do was SMILE. i could not laugh, i could not cry... but all i could do was SMILE. I guess that was the biggest smile i ever had.
Yussy, Milly, Yanie, Yana Kecik, Wann, Faiz, Fai, Faizal, Daryl.

My message to everyone:

Guys and Girls, Brothers & Sisters...
I really cannot describe to you the emotions that rushed in me when i saw all of you. It was a feeling that i never felt before. On that night, those songs that i played were all dedicated to you. You people gave me one of the best nights of my life. I really don't know how to thank you all.

I love all of you! Thank you so very much, from the bottom of my deepest heart.

-SyaZ-

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My message to Yussy:

Hello Jiran...
So it was you who was so called the mastermind. I really don't know how to tell you how much i really appreciate what you and the rest have done. And yes, the CareBear is sincerely from me to you. Its a promise i made to give it to you if you came. I really hoped you like it. You are just like the CareBear. Bringing a big bright SMILE to people's face. You sure put one hell of a big bright SMILE on my face. Thank you so much. You helped me picked out my hat and my shirt the night before. And also thanks for all the times you helped me in other things also.

(*hanya tuhan sahaja yang boleh menunaikan doa-doa ku... amin)

P/S: Trust and Strong. I pray you'll get your wish some day. Insya'allah.

(Milly, your camera rocks!!!)
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Yussy, Me and Yanie. Cool or What?

More pictures from that night. You all are great people.
I LOVE YOU ALL!

StereoWave. 2008.

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Life Story: A NuTribe in town

2008-09-12T21:00:00.012+08:00

Recent hype of a NuTribe has hit the wavelengths of people across the republic. Young individuals, with a soul-passion for Rhythms and Sounds, and the heart of a fearless Warrior. Iban Jiwerr.

Debut performance at @ REFLECTIONS 2008.
Performance named "Sanggup".
Catch their latest hit "SenTak".

Making their debut performance here in our very own arts-hub of the North, Iban Jiwerr aims to bring the audiences into a world of their own. Catch them at REFLECTIONS, 4th November 2008 @ The Republic Culture Center. Details will be out soon.

The Tribe's 2 high powered ladies. They mystify you with their rhythmic melody and sounds.

The Tribe King believed that for a Tribe to be strong, he needs Commanders.
These 3 were personally chosen by the Tribe King to be his strong Commanders.
Protecting the Tribe with their solid presence.
They are also the trusted Protectors of the Tribe Princess.

The Tribe WarLord's Bodyguard.

The Tribe's most infamous duo.
Killers who kill without remorse.
No Warrior ever succeeded in stopping them.
The Tribe King had no choic but to send his WarLord,
Bodyguards and Warriors to capture these 2 Killers.
Captured and ready to be executed.
The WarLord together with the Tribe King's Bodyguards and Warriors
felt that their execution will be a waste of power of strength.
After much convincing and pleading, the Tribe King trusts that his trusted generals
know what they are doing.
The Tribe King pardons them of their sins.
In return, they servc the Tribe King his warriors and fights alongside his generals.

The Tribe's Princess.
Her beautiful charm became the desire of every other Tribe Kings and Warriors.
Protected by the very Generals who are protecting the Tribe King,
Ensuring no harm gets in her way.
The Tribe King entrusted his WarLord to personally teach his Princess
the art of war.
The heart of the Tribe, once she mystifies you with her melodic-rhythms,
No one can come near her.

The Tribe WarLord.
The Tribe King's Personal Protector and Warrior.
When in war or ceremony, the Tribe WarLord leads his Tribe Warriors.
His job is to take command of all of the Tribe King's Warriors and Bodyguards.
His duty is to also ensure that the Tribe Princess remains safe.
Most importantly, he drives the Tribe against their limits.

Iban Jiwerr. 2008.

Daily Acct: Ice-Cream Dream

2008-09-12T01:38:00.007+08:00

4.30am, Sahur time. For the past week and 2 more weeks to come, this will be the time i would wake up for Sahur. Ramadhan is almost halfway through. I can see people who are getting excited about the coming Hari Raya. For me, honestly, i don't really have Hari Raya in mind. Its more of REFLECTIONS, B.E and IbanJiwerr, Sonic Avenue and STEREOWAVE in my mind. Ok, thats for work. Recently, 1 new thought has been on my mind. I really don't know how to explain this thought without revealling what it is.

Back to the topic for today.

Well, I tried to call Yussy since last night but i can't get through her phone. I didn't know if she would be meeting up with me first to go to school. Even in the morning i could not get through her phone. Well, at about 8.15am, she called me and guess what, she is already at the BUS-STOP. Power or what? But she is very nice and kind to wait for me. Thanks Yussy!

Now in school:

The module for today, Computing and Maths 2. Well, i didn't really understand the topic, but class was quite fun. I was in the same group as Syuk. Cool or what?

2nd Break:

Yussy and Milly wanted the whole Iban Jiwerr to meet up to talk about some of the changes in movements and also the song for our Tribal performance. We rehearsed abit of the changes. After rehearsing, i manage to get a short nap at our new hang out spot. 1.30pm, Yussy wanted to get back to class, so i volunteered to accompany her back.

3rd Meeting (Presentation):

When i went back to class, i was surprised that the presentation slides was already done. Sorry to my team-mates. I will try to contribute more next time k? My team was the 1st team to present our problem for today's module. After my team's presentation, i was messaging with Yussy on MSN. She was scared because her class had to do debate. But i know she can do it. So to help her lift up her spirits abit, i initiate to webcam with her to keep her company until her presentation. But she had it in her all along. Best Speaker!

Oh, and yes, in class, we had this mass msn conversation with the malay people in my class. THANKS HAZIQAH. Me, Syuk and Hafiz got Conned by her acting. Hahaz. What a funny moment. We really though she was angry with us talking about the Rabbit.

After School:

Now this is part where i can't wait to talk about. I told Yussy that i'll meet her at her block. Milly and Yanie was already there. Yussy came down quite late. Her class ended late. Yanie had her Hip-Hop i.g meeting to attend. When Yussy met up with us, we waited for Yanie to finish her meeting because we wanted to go to Causeway Point for break-fast and then Swensen's for dessert.

Today, Yussy and Milly we fighting all the way like brother and sister quarelling. Milly kept being jealous about what Yussy always get. Nevermind Milly, next time i give you CareBear also k? Hehe.

We bought food for break-fast at the bazaar. We chilled somewhere near the "titanic" area while waiting for time to break-fast. Meanwhile, we had quite a conversation between the 4 of us. It was from "Music" to "Feelings" to other things about life. Actuall i don't know why but quite randomly we talked about "Feelings".

After break-fast, chilled for a while more. 8.30pm, we made our way to Swensen's for dessert. As much as i would like to talk about how nice it was, i would let the pictures do the talking.

Pilot Entry: The past, the present and the future

2008-09-11T10:43:00.001+08:00

Life is a journey through time. A step taken is the present, the next will make that step a thing of the past and the next steps to be taken will be steps in the future.

Now lets look back at the 3 stages.

The Present:

Everything we do right now, is the present. I'm in the present. You are in the present. How do we as individuals view as what is considered the present. Do we collect the information as a whole block, or just let every second transition from the present to the past.

The Past:

The past however becomes a database of everything that was the present. The present only takes a split second to become a thing of the past, but the past will live on during the present and until the future. I'm sure all of you have heard of the phrase "make every second count". Personally, i think that phrase has a deeper meaning that what it seems to mean. Because it only takes a second for the transition process to take place. The past can never be removed no matter how we try to. The past works like an archive. It links to the present and it has an even stronger connection to the future.

The Future:

The future is like mixing paint. The past are the colours and the future is what we want to paint. How we want the painting to be, it requires different color mixtures, different strokes, different shades. The future is the end product, a visual of what is the past and the present. It varies on how much of the past and the present is used.

"Change" is the only constant thing life. Through time, we all go through changes. Changes comes for the better or for the worse. Life is filled with choices. Sometimes choices don't seem to be there for us to choose, but that is when we have to look for those choices. It isn't easy, but we with the will and determination, it can be found.

This is my journey through time. This is my story.

soundavenue

Trying...

An un-responded message...

Reasons behind answers...

Something in that empty box... part 1

Reality...

A moment...

Be a child again...

Honestly...

Moving through time...

Whats hidden inside?

RP OPEN HOUSE CONCERT 2009

The last few moments of 2008... The great start for 2009.

A long entry.

a "SUGAR-RIDOO" day.

Check out the photos...

Happiness with sacrifice / 1st time in BLOCO SINGAPURA

2 nights of Percussive action.

HOT LATIN NIGHTS presents RHYTHM DE'PASION

A Special Dedication (Belated)... 16.11.2008

3 Nights of REFLECTIONS

Secrets / Disclosure

Letting it all out.

To my Special Friend.

REFLECTIONS '08

Rhythm in the streets... with De'Pasion

A Chocolateeeee Evening!

More t-shirt ideas...

The Tribe's Coming.

Iban Jiwarr T-Shirt Idea.

Clouded visions. Unsure.

Coming Back Soon...

In memory of...

Performance @ the Park / SHAG-a-RAYA

FOOD GALORE

2nd Day of Hari Raya... in school...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL'FITRI!

Last of Ramadhan! Syawal Menjelang Lagi!

The HUG!

Happiness beyond words...

5th post of the day! One with greater meaning...

I don't know what title to put...

Think of the less fortunate this Raya!

Please don't runaway again...

Just when i was about to pick myself up...

This goes to everyone who have brought a great meaning to me! *IJ*

What a week!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NINA!!!

A Saturday filled with fun.... and LIGHTS

Tracking back some dates... Part 3/3

Tracking back some dates... Part 2/3

Tracking back some dates... Part 1/3

QUIZ QUIZ QUIZ

StereoWave: A Drummer's Story

Life Story: A NuTribe in town

Daily Acct: Ice-Cream Dream

Pilot Entry: The past, the present and the future

This goes to everyone who have brought a great meaning to me! IJ