Sometimes things just happens unexpectedly. You might not know what might happen next, what you would feel in the next 5 mins, or who would be coming into your life tomorrow.

Its not usual but somehow i've felt this feeling of just wanting to be honest. No more hiding under my own feelings. No more hiding the truth. No more cover-ups. Coz the more i try to hide, i try to cover things up, or try to be in denial, the more i end up just crushing my own self. The question is, can honesty really be the best policy? Can being honest really do me good?

Honestly, i admit, its not that i am a liar. Certainly not. Its just that, there are times where i just feel like i have to hide the truth. Thoughts of perhaps, its not time for the truth to be heard. Starting off with secrets, will just bring you into more secrets.

I don't know why, i don't know how, but something happened recently, and it somehow made me open up to just be honest and let things out. Maybe not 100%, but at least somehow 80% is a good enough level. I've never felt myself being so honest and open in such a situation.

Right now, i really don't know what to say, i really do not know what i'm feeling, but all i know is, i'm filled with smiles.

SyaZ (pronounced as "S-H-A-Z")
SyaZ-Bo
Syazzy
...and the list goes on...

you wanna here the sounds that lingers within me,
sounds that can't be heard, but can be noticed.
sounds hidden from the surface,
these are the sounds of words within.
if you want to stick around,
you gotta be prepared to listen to the sounds.
not with your ears,
but with your eyes.