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Sunday, September 28, 2008 ' 1:13 AM


Just when i was about to pick myself up...


Last week was filled with emotions, but those emotions didn't end just there. This week, emotions ran around more wildly and drastically.

Monday & Tuesday was quite good. On Monday, i got to meet her. After so long of arguing, of seperation, finally we got to meet again. But not on a very good note. She came to my school, to meet me, to give me back my things. Things which gave great meaning and memories of me to her. I understood why she had to return me those things. Just that when i saw her then, there is this part of me inside that wished if only things were better. Somehow she was there. Eventhough i was angry, i was sad, i honestly say, i really miss her alot. Seeing her there, i felt like hugging her, holding her hands again, even maybe give her a kiss to tell her that everything is going to be ok. But i can't. I can't. That is why i had to ask Yussie and Milly to accompany me. I really needed them to be there. I don't want to drown in tears again.

"Thank you so much for the wonderful memories we had. The precious moments spent. The love, the care, the companion... Thank you for everything. Kalau ada jodoh, tak kan ke mana-mana. Take very good care of yourself. I know i haven't really been there for you, even as a friend. That is because i just need to get myself moving forward first. I hope you understand. Even sometimes it hurts to say this, but i hope that you'll find someone who is the man of your dreams. Someone whom can naturally fit in to be with you. Lastly, i hope you remember me always, as i will always remember you.

Always loving you and always being a friend for you...
Syazni Sukarman."

So there it went. Monday, 22nd September, was our official broke-up date.

Practice was as usual after school. This time, we fixed on structures for the "dance song". I was happy with them. They can now play the song without even having me there to lead. The team building is moving.

Tuesday also was quite a good day. But then, we did something funny. Me, Yussie, Milly and Ninseh were late. Then we decided to DLLS(dah lambat, lambatkan skali). But hey, guess what, we ended up walking to our spot and hell... we didn't go to class... AGAIN!

Practice after that was held @ our spot and was conducted by... THEM! I could see all of them working together, trying to create a fix structure for the "intro song".
"Yussie, slow ok? Keep practising and you'll get that conga rhythm soon. Jyeahh!"
I really am happy that they really are working towards playing as a unit.

For the first time, we all buka at our spot. We made it as though it was our home. Anyways, Wan, Fai and Faiz, volunteered to help me lead the B.E people for the finale practice the next day. Since i already fixed on a locked structure, i printed the structure for them. Anyways, while the team was trying to play the "2nd song", Wann sort of changed the Surdo rhythm, and hell, it sounded darn good. I tweaked the snare rhythms abit and the Surdo, and while they were playing it, i could image alot of stuff to add on, like for eg, electric guitar, bass, keyboards, and a whole lot of other percussion instruments. We'll make that our new song for other events k?

Wednesday, I could not make it for B.E practice. I had performance with TerraVakka @ No.5, emerald hill. It was their beach party, as they have it every year. Anyways, before that, I know Yussie promised she would go with me to my show, but i understand, so i thought she would go for B.E instead, but actually she forgotten all about it. Ok, i was quite upset at first, but hey, i understand lah. She's always with us. In the end she cancelled all plans with whom she had made on that day. She went to highlight her hair. At least she walked with me to CWP after school. Thanks for waiting Yussie.

Show with TerraVakka was great. Simple but shiok. After that we hang out for supper. Long time never hang out with them.

Thursday. I really don't want to remember this day. But it happened and at the same time, i cannot forget it. All i can say is... I panic! Really was Panic!

After school, Only half of IJ came to my place. She didn't come. Even my mum told me to send the food to her, but can't do so. She wouldn't respond to me or the others. I really hope you're ok.

I really didn't sleep that night. The whole night, i keep going down to grab a puff or two. My mind was just not at ease. My heart felt like its exploding. I felt like i've lost everything that day. Everything. Eventhough we are just friends, but that is what makes it even more harder. Because we are friends. To lose a friend is worse!

I was freaking early for school on Friday. Firstly, she replied me in the morning saying she is not going to school. When i was in class, everyone asked me why i am so quiet and down, i just didn't know how to tell them. All i could do was keep quiet.

During 2nd break, I sat all alone at our spot. I feel like screaming out loud. WE MISS YOU!!! I MISS YOU!!! Its like having a sister gone missing. That was how it felt. I just wished you had at least given me a call or reply to my messages. But another friend told me, perhaps you needed time. And i guess they are right.

Saturday... which is just now.
We had practice for next Saturday and Monday's show. We did Samba-Reggae-Bhangra. Its called SamGaeBra. Credits to those who were present today. You were all great.

The best thing! I called her in the morning, she pickep up. She met me to go to school together and we went back together. Ok, still abit quiet and i know she is still trying to get back to her feet. But during practice, seeing her smile and laugh again, darn it just lights up the darkness. I'm glad you're back o' good friend. But i hope you'll come back with your full-self again soon. We really miss you.

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